Hey everyone,

I thought i would pop on and give you an update - since being put on 150mg of efexor 6 wks ago, things have become a lot lighter. I have been able to do 3 day wks at university for 2 wks now which i feel truly blessed to be able to do already considering how badly i felt just a few weeks ago. I even managed to get a mark of 66 in the essay i was writing at the time when i was posting alot...so i feel rather happy with this...considering.

I am unfortunately still having swings in mood, and i am very anxious at times. Plus my legs won't stop twitching and the blank head but screaming voice in my head are i guess slightly annoying but it is definately an improvement on how i was before!

After having 2 more cancellations to see the mental health team i am now going for an appt tomorrow morning. I am incrediably scared about it all and i pray he/she takes me seriously. I hope i am able to get across the severity of the situation because often i appear very practical and 'sensible' so they think everything is ok.

I'm sorry again if i caused any upset to anyone. I wish you all the best, honestly. I guess sometimes words spill out without me understanding the consequences. I wish i could blame this on my age but that would be avoiding responsibility for my actions.

For you all

Bamboo your update is the best Christmas present I could have.
You have been in our thoughts and in our prayers. We can truely appreciate how difficult it is to get up each new day and "try it on for size".

But do you realize how much progress you have already made? I am so thankful that you checked in here....please stay in touch!

Bamboo
You sound great ...................Dont forget the advice given a while ago.by many friends here....print off some of your post and take them with you to the Mental health appointment..


It is important they hear what you are saying, and i do understand you ...when you say ,if you comeover all rational and polite, then they wont see the problem


Bamboo try to tell them from the off.. that this exact moment in time is a calm , and stable period... telll them how you have felt when not so calm..


Bamboo remember there is no age-in rage...............it just comes out.
Take care Helen... and

PS... YOU WILL ALWAYS MATTER:hug:


David

hi there
thank you for posting back.
I agree...print off your posts...it gives a very clear picture of how bad it was for you.
You can find them by searching thru the forums at the top of the page with your name.
I wish you much strength for tomorrows meeting....can't believe it took this long...UGH!!!!!
bizi

YAY Bamboo - thanks for letting us know!

For me, the leg twitching was a side-effect of Effexor (I was on this medication for a few years until it was discovered that it wasn't the drug for me - I also had dry mouth, headaches and nightmares - anway, worth mentioning as I definitely was one who suffered from major withdrawal when I went off of it to switch to something else).

take care!

Thank you for your replies.
I must have been in your prayers...because i did not believe a month ago that i would be writing here today.

I went to see the psychiatrist. I didn't go as well as i wanted. I did print off my posts and explained to her that i was bad at talking but i don't think she quite understood so i didn't read them exactly. Her initial question was....how are you? That just made me stare at her blankly. I didn't want to point out the obvious that if anything was hunky dory i wouldn't be sitting in front of her!

I told her about the depression, and some of the thoughts and ideas that i have. She thinks i just have recurrent depression, i think, there was a slight mention of start of bipolar but i think she just thinks it 99% depression. I didn't exactly explain the restlessness too much unfortunately although i explained the need to talk. She did ask if i did excess shopping during these times but i hate shopping (yeh a girl that hates shopping!!) and if i had increased sexual activity - how can i answer that? I don't sleep with people full stop! During these times i am more childish, i like running around, and being silly. Didn't know if i should say that though - i mean i don't want to sound like an idiot!

She did put me on a low dose of anti-psychotics but she wanted to discharge me back to my GP - i wouldn't let her though because i am so scared of going back to doing it all on my own again. I think because i appear calm and intelligent (for some reason) she can just tell me to research things she says rather than talk me through it.

How did i do? I'm seeing her again in 8 weeks...how should i deal with her at the next appt?

Thank you!!!!!

I'm glad you didn't let her discharge you at this early date Bamboo. It sounds like you are doing much better on the efexor..guess I'm a little suprised at the new drug since she is still dxing you.

I would guess the questions regarding both shopping and sex have to do with mood swings...the highs and lows of BP...not uncommon to have wild shopping sprees and a lot of sex while manic.

I think the most important thing to do is to be honest with her...don't worry about how you think you appear...just tell her what you are feeling. And you remember that we have a bipolar forum here if you have any questions about that. They are very supportive and very informed.

I'm so glad you are checking in and doing better.

(((Bamboo))) I agree about letting your true feelings be known. It will make for a healthier exchange. And I'm so glad you are feeling better.

Hoping for an update from you Bamboo. And praying that this coming new year will be your best yet!

((Bamboo)) How are you dear one? Thinking of you.