I will attempt to try and say again what i said on Saturday,

FIRST point though.............I Apologise if i offended anyone...that was not my intention.

Suicide is for most people a TABBO subject, an offence to the core of humanity, a dirty unspoken subject.....an abomination of life..etc...

CANCER has a similar ring to it........someone says they have cancer and, people are like rats running from a ship... those who you thought cared for you scurry away.....no-one ever broaches the subject or asks the most important question.... 'how are you,,,, really'?

Why do humans act in this way? because we are all scared of our own death...truly...even those who take their own life...[ and listening about someone Else's death or impending death...is naturally very upsetting]

As mere mortals TABOO'S are in place as a safety net...yet at times they are an obstacle to our own humanity.... it's much easier to cross the street to avoid someone Else's pain, and use the excuse 'i don't what to upset them, or offend them' ....It's harder to accept that you don't have the answers to peoples grief/loss/ or understanding of situations.

We can all hear but not everyone can listen,
At times anguish and pain can consume, it eats away, not having answers is soul destroying...but sadly there are at times no answers.

As a survivor in the opposite sense to most of you dear people, I try in my life now to resist the urge to go down that path [ more often than i would like]
I try to stress that 99% of suicide is illness based, wether thats addiction, mental health, pyshical health, or sheer fear and desperation....

An addict will only stop when they choose to, an illness will only end with medical intervention, or God chooses too... And fear and despertion will only end when humans, become more HUMAIN towards each other.


Greif is the hardest emotion known too mankind....and when life is cut short
The shock ten-folds.......its how you cope with that shock.

Freinds that diserted you when needed the most....possibly were not true friends.. they could be humans struggling with grief themselves... if we dont ask we will never know.

I spent many years concerned how others saw me, and judged my actions.... now i think if i can prevent one more person from killing themselves, through listening, offering a kind or supportive word, then my life was meant to be this way.. Who am i to question why i'm here on earth...

To name but a few,,,Ckepi, nohope, smiles, gizmogirl, XIE, Bamboo, Looking4hope, Sunnysidedown,Spanishmoss, dear ALFFE and so many more....
i Truely hear, and understand your pain... and my input is only added to help relieve you of some of the burden you carry.

David