A good friend of mine recommended that I come here. I'm not exactly sure where to start....guess I'll go backwards just a bit. I've been dxed w/bipolar before...not so sure that was the correct dx because I've been med-free for a while now and have been stable. But this post isn't about me, it's about my oldest son (he's 16). I just thought it was important to state that depression is something I've dealt with too.
My son tried to commit suicide Sunday night. Thankfully I found him before he succeeded. I took him straight to the ER, where they of course called in MHMR. I thought they would hospitalize him...but the didn't!? I don't understand that...I'm terrified! Monday, my husband and I took him to see both his pdoc and his psychologist...the pdoc visit was soooo weird! He had prescribed lexapro to my son a few months ago, but my son didn't take it regularly...I had talked to him about that a lot, but honestly, he seemed to be doing better so I didn't push it...I wish I had! Anyway, the pdoc 1st said that he wasn't even going to put him back on the meds! WHAT? He said that he didn't think it would happen again....uh, yeah, easy for HIM to say! I just don't understand why he didn't take this more seriously? I think my son acted like it wasn't as big of a deal as it really was, but a good pdoc should be able to see through that shouldn't they??? He was definitely serious about it...I'm not sure if I should explain what actually took place because I don't want to upset anyone, but trust me, he meant business

After I pushed the issue, the pdoc did go ahead and prescribe lexapro again....at a very low dosage, lower than he originally wanted him to take...which makes NO sense to me whatsoever!
The psychologist seemed very concerned at 1st, but seemed less concerned after talking w/my son. I seriously think that my son is purposely making things sound much less severe than what they are...and they are believing him!
I'm terrified to let him out of my sight! I'm scared that next time, he just might succeed He has another appt with his psychologist tomorrow, but in the past, he has shown that he doesn't talk about his real "issues" with him. In fact, just over a month ago, he took some sort of test and the psychologist told us that we didn't have to worry about him, that he's a good and smart kid??????? Uh, yeah...he's good and smart....and failing and depressed! He used to be an "A" student, in the GT program...
I guess I'm mainly looking for advice here on what to do. I do plan on switching pdocs, but it's going to take a couple of months to get him in with someone else so for now, I'm stuck with this one. Any advice? Thank you all so much!-Hyper

PS. Just have to add something...the MHMR couselor that saw him in the ER told him that she *could* put him inpatient, but that is something that one never lives down OMG, I'm sooooo ticked at her for saying that! I have been an inpatient before...I truly believed it saved my life! My son does NOT want to go inpatient, and the fact that she said that I'm sure has made his opinion about that even worse. Geez, I thought these people were supposed to be trained?!?!

You are in a really tough spot Hypermom. It's hard to try and watch someone 24/7 and his attempt should be taken very seriously. Like you, I wish he'd been hospitalized for at least 48 hours.

Have you asked him why he wants to die? I'd "force" him to talk about it, not deny it. I can recommend a good book, short and maybe he'd read it too.
Suicide, The Forever Decision..I'm away from home so I can't give you the author.

Please know that you aren't alone with this struggle.

Thank you so much, both for your reply and for the info about the book. We (my husband and I) have talked to him about it a lot. He says his reasoning is because he doesn't want to live in a world so full of horrible things He says he doesn't understand how God could let this world be like it is. One of the main things that has him upset is that his new GF confided in him that her dad beats her. I guess he felt that he alone was carrying the weight of knowing that on his shoulders However, I don't believe that is the whole problem...he's only been seeing her for a couple of weeks now and he's had depression problems much longer than that.

I think what scares me the most is how fast his mood changes. Sunday afternoon, he had a friend over and they were laughing and talking and playing with our dog. He seemed to be in a great mood. Then suddenly all of that changed...within 30mins of the friend leaving, my son was very depressed. It's like a light switch gets flipped. That's part of why I worry so much...it's not like I have lots of warning since it all happens so fast. I'm scared that he'll swing into depression sometime when I'm asleep and I won't be able to do anything (my husband works 6 hours away from home and is away for 3weeks at a time, so most of the time, it's just me and the kids)

Hi, I'm sorry for what happened. I'm embarrassed I didn't get to read it that real but I have to leave the house very soon.

Just a quickie about the meds and the pdoc. Yes, by all means get another one. I know what that is like to get stuck with someone that doesn't "get it" and findin another one takes time. Ask tdoc for referrals to any good people he may know. In the meantime, be vigilant about your son taking the lower dose of Lexapro on it everyday.

That's all I can say for now. And try to get your son to open up with the doctor. We all know how to put on a face for everybody but the pdoc is there to help. All though I know how hard it is to accept to yourself that you are "not normal." You know, the I can do it myself attitude.

So sorry, I gotta go...



Hope

Hypermom...I remember that it was in the list at the top of the page...

SUICIDE, The Forever Decision by Paul Quinnett
This book is written for people who are thinking about killing themselves and for those people who know, love, or counsel them.
It is written in the style of him as the counseler he is....having a conversation with you about staying alive.
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I'm sure he is unable to see the forest for the trees when he's in this state...but you might plant the seed...that he'd be killing both you and his father if he goes through with his plans. That a mothers job is to protect her children whether they want it or not. And when he talks...really listen.

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

((Hypermom))

Lexapro is not a med to mess around with. He NEEDS to take that on a regular and daily basis. It does him absolutely no good to take it when he feels like it because they don't work that way and could cause him harm.

I also would be in the psychiatrist's office so fast his head would spin.

Pdoc too.

And complaints to the hospital with a recommendation that their staff have training on suicide attempts. Idiot nurse! But I'm on a mini-rampage this morning anyway, lol.

Those professionals sound just awful.

Alffe has so many words of wisdom I couldn't possibly add more.

You've received great advise thus far. I just want to say that getting a second opinion is the best route and that your doing a great job as a mom for wanting that. I will pray that your son does much better from this point on. Have you looked into any support groups in your area? Specifically one that has those who have tried to commit suicide? Being around others who have been there may help your son. Hugs.

Just like you, the red flags were everywhere. Despite my warning to my husband's family to keep a constant eye on him (as we were then seperated) he still succeeded in suicide.

A good pdoc is someone you can trust (it's only a loved one were dealing with here)! A good pdoc is someone you can trust to prescribe the right med and the right dosage. What the hell are they thinking that lowering his dose is going to better him mentally when he has already attempted the unforeseen! Find someone else! Someone who cares that there is another precious life out there besides their own and they will actually FOLLOW UP WITH A PHONE CALL!!! Going through 3 divorce attorneys, I felt the same way. Finding a good lawyer is like finding a good doctor "a needle in a haystack".

Get used to his routine of sleep and sleep when he does. I know your fear and it's obvious mine is too late to do anything about it now. You are doing a great job and I feel your undying love for your son. Keep up the great work!

http://www.yellowribbon.org/


This is an excellent program Hypermom. Your son might want to take a look at the teen section. I had the good fortune to hear the Emmes presentation several years ago when they were in town talking at four high schools.

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I'm so happy to see you have posted here.You are now surrounded by a wonderful group of people that can help you..
Your in my prayers...