Did you ever have one of those days where you walk around and feel like you have a sign over your head that says "Defective?" You look at the ground like you're afraid someone will see you. Well, that's how I felt today when I went out. It's no fun. And I'm sure it's not helping any that I am in the middle of a med change. Going down on Lexapro and switching to Zoloft for now. I like my NP that I am working with and I have faith that we'll get it right but it takes time. And time is what I feel I am running out of.

As far as being a giver or a taker is concerned, I think all of us are either or the other at time in our lives. If anything I think my friend is a giver more than anything and at times, I know he has felt depleted by giving too much. I know he is experiencing a lot of personal challenges right now and he probably doesn't have anything to give. I've given when I've been able and he has given when he has been able. I guess I have to accept that we are both on the needy side and can't be there for each other. This too shall pass, I hope.

SandyC - I saw a sign on the way home that said, "You're life isn't spinning out of control, you're on God's potter wheel."

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Kell -- I know. It's amazing to me how we can treat others better than we do ourselves.

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You know, when I said, "I don't care," it's more like I give up.

I dunno, that's all I can say for now. I'm tired.

Love to all,

Hope

Hang in there and we'll be here when you need to talk. I love the "You're life isn't spinning out of control, you're on God's potter wheel." How perfect.

I can't get control of myself. I feel like a failure. I'm sorry.

Dear
Looking for hope

The feeling that you 'can't get control of yourself' is our mind's way of saying i give up, i'm tired, exhausted, I havn't got the strength,
Its also our mind saying relax, draw breath, be still, be patient.

When we truly stop and listen to our inner being we here, forgiveness, support, resiliance, hope, and desire to be at peace with our self.
Sadly amongst all the confusion of life we rarely stop and listen to our inner self.

To overcome adversity we have to overcome obstcles, by overcomming the obstacles we reach our goals. [ when we reach our goals always set new ones then you know your truly alive and in control of your own life]

If you let go of who you are, you become the person YOU want to be.

DEPRESSION is cycle of self doubt, but have no DOBUT it can be controlled , so that we can learn to manage it, and live a life hopefully with more sunlight in it

I truly wish you peace of mind ,and the courage to overcome your obstacles, and just to remind you I care.

David

Just keep talking....

One is only a failure if they do not try....

Sometimes HUGS can say more
than WORDS can - sending a lot
of HUGS to you!

Just a quick note to you looking...
I wonder if you have ever taken a really warm bath lately.
It slows yourself down and is very soothing.
I used to take warm baths awhile back.
It is a way to ground yourself as well.

I am sorry.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Calgon "take me away" never worked. I would still get out of the bath and have every problem still staring at me in the face.

I guess we all must find our own avenues of "take me away" and then realize the problem is still there and put it in perspective.

I do know that sunshine does help! Bizi, if you could spread a little more of that around.................

This has been the longest winter of my life! I have a hornet stuck to my screen door tonight. Is spring coming? New hope for everyone!

Tender care

We do whatever works for the moment. If we can't stand looking at the long road then it's back to the baby steps and the realization that there are no quick cures....do one hour at a time and set one small goal (clean the bathtub, scrubb the kitchen floor or just wash one window) but finish that job. It's a start. Wallowing doesn't help...been there, done that and it's a no winner.

Alffe, I know you are trying to help... But telling me I am wallowing in self-pity does not help. It's akin to telling me to buck up and get over it.

Love,
Hope