How many times?
When I was just a tot uncle committed suicide to escape the horrible monster called cancer after fighting for a few years and only getting more ill.
His name was Art... (Arthur)
When I was in middle school was at a friend’s house with other friends we had cut class to go see a pal who wasn’t coming to school he and his g.f. had just broken up. We had scored a six-pack and brought it over to just hang out and stuff. That friend after while got up went into room and shot himself while we were out in living room. His name was Steven
My first crush boy friend had bi polar no one really hung out with him at school but I did. He always had the biggest smile and his nickname was smiley. His parents moved and shortly after moving away he committed suicide. He was a really really great boy with a wonderful kind caring way about him .His Name was Bob.
Next year following that my dad “died” and shortly after that a car full of my neighborhood pals crashed into a pole and 3 of the 6 died. That is when I first tried to take my own life. L I over came the depression I never graduated from high school.
When I was 16 my mom moved and I was on my own working and paying rent.
I moved to Florida with my high school boy friend. We lived together then got married.
Had 2 girls. met a new neighbor who was from conn. Next town from where I grew up we became good friends her hub and my hub worked together. My sister had affair with my friend’s hub. My friend asked for devoice he committed suicide he was the best man at our wedding his name was Doug. He was a heavy drinker in his free time.
Was last day of school on way to pick up my first born from 3ed grade. Was stopped in school zone behind other cars. Xing guard in middle of highway moms and kids were xing. I woke up in the hosp. 6 days later all messed up. Was hit by trailer truck and pancake into car in front of me. Yes I had seat belt on and yes my little one was in safety seat. No one died and I got the worst of injuries. My little one only got a long lasting black eye. THANK GOD!!!!!!! THANK SEAT BELTS!!!!!
Face pain face pain no meds helping. Meds making me zombie I have no life I cant be mom. I am not even human I am some freak. I am making my family go threw such hell bills. I am so dependent on them (family)… that is when I thought about ending my life a second time. I told my pain doctor he sent me to big big hosp here in Florida I got another doctor who helped me fight in court and who also did operation for my neuro stimulator. I found a councilor I felt I could talk with. I talked and talked and talked and cryed and cryed was angry. I learned many things to do and not to do for me myself. I got threw and
Here I am. I like this new me much better even with all the dents and scratches. I say I was just rebuilt by some big guy in heaven. His name is God.
Two years ago my cousin who worked as guard at prison committed suicide.
When I was a tiny kid I got a graduation picture of him and I kept it by my bed. I thought he was the coolest cousin big and strong and having his picture by my bed would scare the boogieman and bad dreams away plus I thought he was good looking which ya know ha ha.. I wish he had something to scare his bad dreams away. His name was also Steven.
so thats a look at me. dont look to long, and know that not all of me is bad or ugly.
PEACE
BMW hugs to the room

Oh I like you a whole bunch with all your dents and scratches BMW!! And you certainly have had more than a passing acquaintence with suicide...congrats on getting the necessary help...if you hadn't been honest about what you were feeling...who knows what might have happened.

thank you for trusting us enough to share....warm hugs.

And Tammie...I hope your relatives are getting support somewhere.

BMW, thanks for allowing us to see inside the window of your life. You've definitely had a lot of speed bumps along your highway through life.

A very wise person once told me that God only gives you what you can handle. Sometimes I wonder when those challenges will stop. I feel like I've had more than I can handle sometimes, then remember that it's always one day at a time and I don't have to do it all at once or all by myself.

to you BMW...you are a very special person. As is everyone...each in his or her own way.

Awwww, sweetie, you've sure had a lot of hurt and sadness in your life.

But please know that we love you and want you to be happy. We're always here for you.

Thanks for the hugs -- sending some back your way:

Check in again soon, will ya? Let us know how you are doing. We really do care. XOXOXOX

BMW…thank you so much for sharing your story…it means so much to me…

Alffe…my relatives aren’t seeking help…doing a lot of drinking…a lot. Oh, gosh it hurts...

BMW.....you've been through too much. I have no rocket science type stuff to say, but I hear you. I feel your pain.

Oh Tammi they are self medicating. Is there a support group near them? Has anyone suggested it? Are they talking about the suicide? How we "deal" with all the emotions that accompany suicide is key to our healing.

(((BMW))) (((Ms. Loo))) Many hugs and much love.

Alffe...they don't think they need help...I can't remember how much I have told you...but my son who had only been married for a few weeks who went with his bride to my nieces home...after the funeral left my son and moved to Oregon and moved in with my niece and they are now a couple...so the children are suffering...

Maybe I should start a new thread....don't know...what do ya think..??

Hugs again too ya dear BMW

No words just ((((Bwm)))) ((((Loo))))


Dottie