It is good to see you post BJ. I echo what everyone else has said and here's a big hug from me, too.

Thinking of you BJ...

Abbie

Dear BJ,
It does not matter if anyone believes you or not.
You have an obligation to yourself to tell the whole story.
Start talking please.

M.

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BJ, know you are in my prayers!!!!!
vicky

Matthew 7: (Jesus) “Judge not, that ye be not judged”?

Romans 2:1Therefore thou art inexcusable, O man, whosoever thou art that judgest: for wherein thou judgest another, thou condemnest thyself; for thou that judgest doest the same things.

2But we are sure that the judgment of God is according to truth against them which commit such things.

3And thinkest thou this, O man, that judgest them which do such things, and doest the same, that thou shalt escape the judgment of God? …

21Thou therefore which teachest another, teachest thou not thyself? thou that preachest a man should not steal, dost thou steal?

22Thou that sayest a man should not commit adultery, dost thou commit adultery? thou that abhorrest idols, dost thou commit sacrilege?

23Thou that makest thy boast of the law, through breaking the law dishonourest thou God?

It is clear in other scriptures that God expects us to make judgments, but they must be made with love

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I like the philosophy in the bible...

bj, have you tried the rubberband on the wrist? snap that hard or ice in your hand?

sweets. no one knows how you feel except someone else who cuts. i know you have gotten pm's from a special lady.

i'm here. a pm away. let me know when you want to go into chat again. even for just yapping. we don't have to chat about anything serious.

BP. just want to send you a little hug or 2 or 3

I hope you find courage and strength enough to talk and share and keep seeking help. You are a wonderfull lady and are in our hearts and prayers!
PEACE
BMW
you can come and act silly with us in the sleepless thread theres not much serious talk in there but you may just find a smile inside if you visit.
Luv you B.

I don't cut because I want attention. I started to cut when my mom passed away because I felt like I couldn't go on without her, I couldn't stand to wake up and know that I won't talk to her or see her that day.

No I'm not proud of it and I hate myself for doing it. People who cut have intense feelings of fear, hurt, anger, rejection or abandonment. Most importantly they need to feel pain on the outside instead of the inside. I don't want sympathy and I know it's not appropriate to cut yourself. But when the pain is so deep, you do it. I don't want to drive people away and I don't want to be labeled but that has already happened. When you feel like you're being blamed for something you didn't do or feel you've done wrong, you cut because it makes you forget about your real pain. I hope I make sense but this is why I cut.

Thank you for the PM Vicky, and for understanding. Yes Curious I'm trying the rubber band and ice to make myself feel pain instead of cutting. I called my pdoc and told her I need to talk to her. I don't know what or if I'll tell but I have to try.

BJ I am so glad to see you are posting! Good for you!!

BJ, I do understand the need to cut, and I would be more than happy to talk with you, here, in PM , email...anything

There is something you said that is bugging me..... .
That anyone would do this to you, really troubles me. If someone has cancer, bi-polar- depression...should they be ridiculed? hell no!!! Neither should you be labeled, judge , or pushed away! Anyone who would do this? Is hardly worth the air they breath and the space they are taking up, IMHO Concentrate instead on those who care about you, and would never do such a thing, hold them close to you

I think perhaps it is what I was saying, and what curious said today....no one but one who cuts, knows how you feel. But I will go one step more, and say those whose families have been effected would have a better understanding, and compassion too. As with any difficulty, or illness, it always effects the WHOLE family.

You already took the first step.... you told someone. I am sooo proud of you

I see you already use the rubber band.... get an extra large one, one that will really hurt when you snap it. Perhaps, have a large washable red marker, and bear down on that, leaving a mark on your skin as you snap the band. If the band doesn't work, try a dull object, something that wont break the skin..anything... heck stub your toe

Most importantly, as I already said, and can't stress enough.... you must heal the inside pain! Then you will not need the release the cutting provides. I know you know this. I know you also .. Know you must tell your doctor everything. People can't help, if they aren't given the chance. We are here to help you through this Nikki

Thanks for understanding why I cut Nikkey, not that that's any excuse. I'm so ashamed of it but I have my reasons, I have my reasons for saying why I was labeled. I don't have any family left to understand. I know you lost your dad to suicide Nikkey and I couldn't think what to say, part of my problem. I have a lot of feelings inside but they won't come out. I am truly sorry about your dad. Some days I just wish I could pick up the phone and talk to my mom, or my brother who left this earth way too soon. And I'm sure you feel the same way, my heart goes out to you