BJ memory loss is usualy a temporary thing that returns to you in a short time. I pray you are letting the doctors know exactly how you feel and what you think each time you go.even after your back home you can call and let them know.
I have like almost a 2 and half to 3 years of my life I tottaly cannnot recall it is from a head injury. It is gone forever. I had to learn how to do things all over like a little baby learns. how to eat i had a speach coach to talk i had to learn how to drive and cook and all kinds of things. It isnt from ect but from my accident and head injury. Heck I still cant spell and when speaking my words come out backwards. your not alone and i understand in some ways but not in every way what you are feeling.
Please hang strong and keep reaching for help. Tell the doc. everything you think and feel and remember we are all here for you. we care deeply and love you so much. Sending strength courage and blessings for you.
drink fluids eat healthy and get as much rest as you can..also keep going to doc and sharing with them.they can help.
holding you in my prayers BJ:hug:
so is the rest of your family here dont forget how much you meen to us!
God Bless
PEACE
BMW

BJ
 

Thank you for that sweet post in the Bipolar forum. I hope that you are feeling better. BF

Bump For Bj
girlie we all need to hear from you.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

BJ,

please check in, even just a quick hi would be just fine. Just to let us know that you are doing OK....

:hug:

I was just reading at the forums and you are missing in action. *grin...guess I am too but I don't need the support right now...and I think you do. Please know how many of us love you BJ...you keep forgetting that you are the very definition of a survivor...you've set that bar very high just by continuing to get up every day and trying. Never under estimate how much courage that takes. You aren't perfect, you never will be...none of us is or ever will be but we can be examples in this life...good examples. I love you dearheart...now reach out. :hug:

Bless you for bumping this one up Alffe mom!!!
I have been missing and worring about our b.j. for a while now
I have been holding her quietly in my thoughts prayers and positive wishes .
and i know others have also. we need you to check in and post a fast hello so we can know your lurking at least. Reach out like Alffe mom wrote. that is most importion! you are a suvivor just like all of us and we are all here for you as you have been here for us. please know we love you and care deeply.and please check in. pretty please.:hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hu g::hug::hug::hug::hug:
:grouphug::grouphug:
PEACE
BMW
oppsiee i see it was my hero bizi that bumped this up THANK YOU BIZI

I’m going through a rough spell, feel all out of sorts, don’t know whether I’m coming or going, trying to keep up with the world but it won’t let me off. I feel so lost right now, so alone. All these memories came flooding back trying to reconstruct the time line of my life for my tdoc. I told her I couldn't do it and cancelled the appointment. Looking at pictures of how it used to be and how my brother was always laughing and smiling in every picture. Even though he was younger, he always made me laugh, always knew what to say. I feel ashamed.

It is not visible that my heart aches.
It is not visible that I have anxiety.
It does not appear that it feels as if my whole body trembles.
It does not show that I think about what happened every day.
It is not visible that I sometimes cry as a child when I'm alone.
It does not seem like I feel outside myself.
It is not visible that I wish people would listen.
It does not show that I can not talk to my memories with anyone.
It does not seem I tremble in fear when I see an ambulance.
It does not appear that I am fighting.
It does not appear that I am afraid.
It does not show that I am forever missing my brother.
It is not visible ...

Beacuse I do what you want me to and smile.
And for that I am ashamed.

so many hurt feelings...
you poor thing.
I really feel for you.
I know that you are hurting and when we lose someone we love it is instinctual to feel it was somehow My fault....
but it wasn't your fault.
Mark made this decision.
When there were people who hurt you that was not your fault, but you keep punishing yourself.
I wish that you were not so isolated.
Thank you for posting to us...we need to hear from you...we need you just as you need us...we are family now....help each other when we can....not one of us is perfect, we all make mistakes...
so know that we will not judge you only want to help support you.
We can be your sounding board...
please meet with your tdoc...there does not have to be an agenda...I think that you should be able to go in there and not have completed your home work...talk with her about how this was making you feel. She is on your side.
Please trust her.
You have to resist the urge to think in black and white.
You are being way too hard on yourself.
Quit that.
HOw is hooper?
are you eating?
sleeping? going for walks?
Do you drink coffee? how about going to a coffee shop and just surround yourself with other people.
When you are isolating yourself....you need to be around other people, make yourself get out of the house.
Thank you again for posting....
keep posting/venting/writing/getting it out/
what ever you want/need from us we will try to be there for you.
((((((HUGS))))):hug:
bizi

(((((((((((((((BJ))))))))))))))))))))))