OK, starting my wonder over although I got distracted by Wonder Woman (da wife) she walked by with some hot outfit and I lost my drain of thought...

OH, did I say that out loud? LOLOLOL ;)

OK, let's see where I was pondering...

oh yeah...

it is good to see this forum "waking up"

because it IS read by many...it needs LIFE in here...because of this horrible subject, "SUICIDE"

if folks like you all didn't give it life and it remains asleep, what purpose WOULD it serve???

*sigh.....

and Tammi, thanks for posting all these inpirational stuff lately. I really love your outlook on things...you always try to look for the positives in the negatives, reminds me a lot of da wife... :) It is always good to be reminded that whenever there is a storm, there sure is almost to be some Sun or Rainbow afterwards..(which we DID saw last week and she took some great photos of it, now I just have to find the time to post it cause she's the type to say, hey, I took the photo, now you do da work... :rolleyes:)

and to Doo doo breath: I am still impotent...LMAO...will be thinking of you and your grand doo doo...did that come out right? Uhhhhh..another bad bun, I mean, pun...:thud:

well, these are my wonders of the day, I think I've done enough damage already...

oh, and to mistiis...it is good to see you...*warm fuzzies*

(notice I didn't say anyone's name when they don't wonder, but that doesn't mean I am NOT wondering about you! :D )

oh, forgot da wife, she's gonna thump moi....

I am truly the luckiest person in da world....and I'll try my very best...which usually aren't good enough...but I'll try it anyways...to be the best I can be, when I join the Army.. :D ;)

((((((((((((to the whole room, broom, voom, 'shroom, fume, boom, loom (whatch it...) and zoom))))))))))))

:grouphug:

one more before I log off for the day...

and this wonder is totally selfish for me....

I NEED you...ALL of you....to WALK with me....

this is a tough road...the stupid suicide thoughts, the stupid panic attacks, the stupid pains...

I have it...I hated to say it but I have it...yes....

and I NEED all of you....cause I care about you all greatly...

you have been my heart when I couldn't find it....you have been my soul when it was stolen...

don't go away...

Walk with me...

I promise I will always walk with you...cause I am grateful yet even more so, I am thankful and all that has turned into much love for you guys...

thanks...to all of you that have been there for me so many dang times...here, there, openly, privately, behind the bushes, in the back seat of the cadillac...wait, I am getting mixed up... :o

I am utmost sincere in my pleats...(they told me I look fat in jeans...LOL)

OK, that's not a wonder, that's a demand...LOL

((((((((((((((((:grouphug:))))))))))))))))))

see this path...let's get through it "together" OK?? :) (even though it is in South Korea :thud: LOL)

http://korean.wunderground.com/data/...r/rand6/11.jpg

I wonder that Moi just made my day. You take it lightly, but you have
a gift dear friend:hug:

I wonder if I should start calling Doody twiggy? You look thin enough
in that picture another 20 pounds! Very nice picture:hug:

I wonder if I get pups names mixed up...is this Alffe's? I soooo love
dogs and he's a beaut!

I wonder how Koala is and if she is feeling better?

I wonder if I can welcome back Mistiis ... so glad you are feeling
better and able to reconnect with friends:hug:

I wonder if have ever told any of you (I know I told Goofy) how
much I LOVE the story of Lady and the Tramp.... I have a huge
collection of memorabilia.... such a child at heart :D

So GOOD seeing you all post, ((BIG HUGS))


http://i330.photobucket.com/albums/l.../ladytramp.jpg

http://i330.photobucket.com/albums/l...i1of7/ps-1.jpg

((MOI))


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I wonder that I survived yet another hurdle. Yesterday was six months
since my Dad took his life. In some respects, it seems like it happened
just yesterday, in others....... it seems like years.

I wonder all the time if this is how it starts. This deep gnawing pain
that I can't seem to make stop. By that I mean, I have lost those I
love, I have lost my only baby... each loss hurt deeply. But with the
loss of my Dad, I feel like there is this huge hole inside me, it is compounding
all the past losses, mixed with the losses to come.. trying to overwhelm
me. I remember my Dad saying once, a person could live to long...
I wonder if this is what he meant by that?

I wonder if I will survive another service for my Dad? I want very much
for my sister to find some closure, but I just don't know how much I
can take.

I wonder that the kids are already talking with excitement about Christmas...
and yet I wish I could just cancel the whole holiday. So, unlike me. I have
always always cherished Christmas. This year............

I wonder where all my SOS family is? I miss you and ... I need you :hug:

I wonder that I was up all night... and perhaps this is part of the reason I
am so down today.

I wonder if I can tell you, Lynn took another turn for the worse. He is
such a fighter, and is doing better now. But, it wears on me... the
heartache that is to come. We have been together since I was 18!
I hardly remember a time without him.

I wonder that at least now, I can admit when I am more down than the
average bear and reach out for help. I am waiting for my doctor to call
me back.

I wonder if I can tell Moi, I am thinking of you today :hug::hug:

I wonder if I can let DMack know last light his post helped me greatly.
It is so good to see you posting again:hug:

I wonder if you could all go check out the post Moi started for Hippiegirl.
She is really down and in need of all our support.

I wonder if I can go lay down .... leaving :hug::hug: for everyone

http://i330.photobucket.com/albums/l...i1of7/ps-1.jpg

whew, just got back from my early appt. Hate the early ones...LOL

getting ready to go see my PDOC...very scared...wish me luck...


wonder if I can thank nik and DMACK and k77 for keeping a great night watch on the forum last night...and hope that hippiechick will come back and see that folks care about her...

wonder if I can tell DMACK that his post brought tears to my eyes about when he cried...I have a lump in my throat right now...

wonder if nik knows we'll be thinking of her today and hope that she gets some rest....and that we'll be praying for Lyn...

wonder about all of you...how much I care about you guys...

((((BIG HUGS)))) for the day...

and here I go....getting ready for somebody to tell me I am NVTS....LOL

:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

i wonder if i can send me love to all? :grouphug:

ike has me busy 24/7. i'll post when i can.

I wonder that sometimes people really need to get away...for whatever reasons, and that should be respected.

Because...I wonder that if/when they 'lurk' to keep up on the goings on, and see that people keep posting about their absence, do they feel guilty...like they've done something wrong? Possibly.

I wonder that...if I stray from forums, it's because I have a good reason and I'm smart enough to figure out what I need to do to get 'back to the flock' if that's what I choose to do.

I wonder that...at my own private forum, how I worried and wondered why a certain person would not post, or even sign up and only found out very recently why. I whined about it for awhile and shouldn't have.

I wonder that silence can be better than publicly blowing up.

I wonder that I just discovered that my fly is down.

I wonder if (((Nikki))) needs more hugs, and again...if she knows how brave I think she is.

I wonder if (((BMW's))) plate is getting cleared off.

I wonder how ((Moi's)) appt went.

I wonder that for awhile now I've felt like I'm standing on an edge and my brain wants me to jump and say, oh to he!! with it all.

I wonder that...even though I'm only 59, I'm tired and don't want to do it anymore. I'd like to sleep for awhile and wake up to a new life or...none at all. But, wait until tomorrow, that might change.

I wonder about that 'ideation'.

I wonder when g-moss' might show up. Haven't had any updates on that so I'm guessing there are none.

I wonder if I should contact certain friends to tell them that no...I'm not mad at them or ignoring them. Well, maybe ignoring because I haven't felt like talking about feelings.

I wonder if duck knows I am still stalking her for introducing me to the new addictive bingo game at Pogo.