[Nik-key]

I wonder if I can let you all know that I am ok. The physical pain is out weighing the emotional pain .. and I am on my way to the hospital. I have taken everything I have for break through pain, and it isn't touching it. Tina please IM me about the stimulator, if it isn't to painful for you to talk about.. this is what they are suggesting. (for the ON, they will not do the deep brain stimulation for the TN) I wont be on for awhile, but I just couldn't go without letting you all know why I wasn't here and that I AM ok!

Much love and take care of each other

[tamiloo]

I wonder about Nikki and needing to tell her as a fellow caregiver not to try to do everything...I do that and it kills me...painful. I love you Nikki and your in my heart and prayersl.

I wonder how sunny it could be outside my window on this winter day?

I wonder how fun it is to watch out the bay window in my bedroom and see the little birds at my feeders...need to buy more...hungry birds.

I wonder how much I love all my wonder family....

[Burntmarshmallow]

I wonder if NIKKI knows I had to EMAIL her cus i dont have her I.M. so I hope she gets the Email. And I am wraping her in my prayers.

I wonder if Sister Goofy knows how sorry I was to hear about her fall. I wonder if she will slow down like Addy said ?

I wonder how Bj is doing and she too has been in my prayers and on my mind

I wonder if Koala can feel this healing hug? Koala sister you need to get your rest!! I wonder that it might be better for me to reply on other thread.

I wonder how B.F is??

I wonder if the ones lurking know we have them in our hearts and send prayers for them also.

I wonder how I feel bad caling Twink at work... but I just got done with work ..so the whole world must be done with work too dont'chya- know

I wonder if i can catch up on some of the threads, messages and forums here as I have a free day tomorrow .

I wonder about my big caring understanding family here I wonder if they can use a hug


PEACE
BMW

























I THINK I AM ABOUT TO HAVE A CHOCOLATE ATTACK ! ! !

[Brokenfriend]

BF is right hear. I just posted a new thread here. I've been very bottled up on the inside recently. BF

[who moi]

I wonder at you dear folks...

I wonder at how grateful I am..all the messages and PM's and emails of encouragements for the moss and me and the grandkids...

I wonder if I can apologize that I am still trying to play catch up...

I wonder if I can say that I've got two part time jobs and plus my own business (very slow business) that I have actually been a bit swamped...

but then I don't wonder that I can just come back and that you all are here...supporting each other, openly, privately...

to everyone...that post, lurk, or used the thanks buttons...

to everyone, that PMs or personal messages or emails...

especially during this holiday season....

it just warms this scrooge...

don't get me wrong...I understand the meaning of the seasons...

I just get a bit perturbed by all the rudeness and all the gripes and it troubles me...

people seems to worry more about the little thing vs what is truly important...

I wonder WHY Christmas is celebrated..

is it because of the dude in the red suit? (he's part of it because he IS a reminder)

the gift part is just a reminder to all that believe that we received a gift....

When Jesus died, he died for the equality of all...he was trying to bring all together...and he had to die to bestow the gift...

"GIFT"

of course, we can't all go out and die on the cross...so Santa is here to remind us that the "gift" is a symbol of what THAT gift was...

trust me, this coming from a guy who ISN'T religious...

"religion"

Sting's song had stated that religion is to "rekindle with your spiritual self"

I must admit, the guy that got trampled to death during black Friday bothered me a great deal...

and it was even more shocking when people were "disappointed" that they couldn't get to shop after the guy's death...

WOW....that bothers me a whole bunch...

around the holidays, I find myself not really wanting to go out much...

people are RUDER around this time for some reason...cars seem to honk more...the line seems to freeze everyone's face and nobody wants to smile...

people want to rush yet the items are more...

more registers are opened yet the lines are longer...

cashiers lose their smiles and the patrons lose their smiles and the whole "holiday" ambience becomes one that is unpleasant...

I sometimes want to shout in the store...DON'T ANYONE REMEMBER WHAT THIS IS ABOUT??

I am sure they do once they get home...

but then there is always hope...

especially when I come here to NT, and to my home here at the SOS forum...

whenever I log on and I see the PM's or messages and I am being totally honest...

you would not believe how warm my heart feels when someone would take time out to write me or PM me...

or when I see folks here supporting one another...

that, IS the GIFT...

thanks for the gift....

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

sorry if I sounded a bit "exclamation, ampersand (thanks Frank), pound, pound, asterik, at, exclamation, at, asterik, percent, percent, ^ (what is "^" called?")"

tonight...I guess I am becoming the grouch that I was talking about...LOL

*slaps self...STOP IT MOI!! MAKE SOME SENSE YOU ^^^^ard!!!!

[Burntmarshmallow]

I wonder if i can leave a fright train of healing prayers for everyone who is dealing with surgeries and broken hands thumbs and for those who are in the dark. I hope they can feel the love the care and see the light and not feel so alone I hope they feel the support on healing prayers.

I wonder that it is my youngest one birthday today she is 14.

I wonder that I did get called to work for 10 so will check back later...
Out Back Stake House for Hazels birthday meal her favorite place to eat...yesss no cooking

Low pain and healing prayers to everyone.
PEACE
BMW

[mistiis]

I wonder that I just didn't THINK that I was going to have a chocolate attack, I DID have a chocolate attack

I wonder that I am still having a chocolate attack, and am wondering which chocolate goody I am going to have and will come back later

I dont wonder how much I love my very special forum family here

[Alffe]

I wonder at the incredible day I have had...

I wonder at the letter I got from my Pastor and the request she made that I contact a survivor....

I wonder that on contacting that survivor he not only shared his pain, but his incredible experience on discovering his son's body....

I wonder if he will join us here...I hope so....

I wonder at the memories I am experiencing on getting out the Christmas decorations....

I wonder at my silver ball...friend to friend, year after year,...still contains those tiny notes from reyn...with a drawn red heart...how long that must have taken to do that...how much it still means to me....

I wonder at the beautiful bells from Scrabble..and her moms talent...

I wonder if Doody remembers the old fashioned p.card decoration she sent us...it will hang lovingly on the tree again....

I have more wonders but I have to go to bed! *grin

[doxiemama]

I'm so thankful for all the wondering that I have found here and that it has helped me find myself and helped me grow. Thak you everybody and never stop wondering....

Hugs, Doxie

[Nik-key]

I wonder how sweet ((doxie)) is

I wonder if I can wish Haz a Happy Birthday!! Any cake left?

I wonder if I can thank my Angel friend ((BMW)) for all her help these past couple of days.

I wonder if I can tell ((Moi)) I was in a very foul mood after having my nerve block done and on the way out of the hospital, this kind old man who was very sick, took time out of his suffering to wish me peace from my pain, and a very merry Christmas. WOW Turned my mood right around

I wonder how ((goofy)) and ((BJ)) are feeling tonight?

I wonder if I can tell ((Tammy)) I love you too

I wonder how ((Alffe's)) post on her Christmas memories made me smile

I wonder if ((mistiis)) knows how much I appreciate her friendship?

I wonder how ((hippiechick)) is doing? I think of you often

I wonder if ((doody)) has ever tried TENS for her fibro? (I read about it today and thought of you )

I wonder if I ever told you that my Dad had just the most incredible voice. Whisky baritone, I can still hear him singing............

I wonder if I can leave big hugs to everyone lurking

Big hugs to the room