NeuroTalk Support Groups - Some Confusion

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- - Some Confusion (https://www.neurotalk.org/survivors-of-suicide/81411-confusion.html)

Yeah, but the monkey can use her feet, too. :D Probably knows how to push buttons with her nose! :p IMHO, I think everything is cool the way it is. It's just new, that's all. :)

I use the mouse with my left hand....:rolleyes:

Oooppss... I forgot... I'm left handed....:D:D

:o
Abbie

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Originally Posted by Idealist (Post 482694)

Yeah, but the monkey can use her feet, too. :D Probably knows how to push buttons with her nose! :p IMHO, I think everything is cool the way it is. It's just new, that's all. :)

Change is hard my friend...but I agree, it's cool the way it is!! :hug:

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Originally Posted by Abasaki (Post 482697)

I use the mouse with my left hand....:rolleyes:

Oooppss... I forgot... I'm left handed....:D:D

:o
Abbie

well that's another thing we have in common dear girl...:hug:

I don't know if any other posters are like me or not, but I had a whole long repy written out to post here. It contained many emotions about the way I feel in reply to what other members had written as well as my own reflections.

Because it was a long post, by the time I'd finished typing it others had posted. I then deleted the whole thing because I felt intimidated.

Why is it that we let ourselves feel like that?

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Originally Posted by Koala77 (Post 482739)

Firstly... :hug:

I'm sorry you lost your post, Koala. May I thank you for your honesty. You were much more honest than me. I just ran away from it.

I decided to go away for the rest of the day, but I came back for a peep just now and see you were strong and posted how you felt. I felt the same way. Intimidated.

I don't know why we let ourselves feel like that but some things are difficult to ignore. I'm sure nothing was said with a mean spirit, it's just I for one don't like being told that one thing is more important than another and I don't like telling other people that something that might be seriously important to them is not important to me etc..

I can totally see why you dear Moi asked for the forum... I had figured it might have been set up for those reasons or similar reasons and I totally understood anyone/you asking. It's one of those things where you're damned if you do and you're damned if you don't.

edited twice to add: I don't think I've worded my message particularly well. I'm sorry for that. I'm sick and tired and not thinking so sharply as I could. My intention isn't to hurt someone. I see enough potential for that as I read the posts and signatures. I just needed to say it as it feels right now. I often feel/think some things ARE important to other people and I'm usually happy to accommodate their feelings rather than my own because I can see the need.

I guess I will try to put words to my feelings, don't know if it will make much sense but here goes..

I first started reading here at sos because of Moi. He has a wacky yet comfortable sense of humor. Yes I stalked him here LOL

I never considered myself a survivor of suicide since I first thought that to be a survivor you had to actually try to commit. How wrong I was on that.

I lost a SIL to it and have had to try to come to terms with why and what could I have done different. I honestly had no idea that she had tried before because people generally do not speak of it. (the elephant) Afterwards when I would see stuff similiar in movies it really really bothered me. So I just supressed it down farther and farther and didn't talk about it.

So I have lurked here for some time. I don't post because I just don't know what to say. Maybe I don't want to say what I want to say...who knows... I suffer with chronic pain from spinal problems and syringomyelia and depression is my biggest fear. I have had some strong spiritual moments that have saved me from most of my pain and almost all of my depression.

But from reading here at SOS I feel like I know many of you even though in reality I do not. I read of your daily struggles, your laughter, your fears. Because of me reading I felt like I was a part of the whole. Then when I read about who should vote in a poll it hit me wrong. Regular posters vs non regular posters...After all I consider myself to be a lurker.

Goes back to feeling like a part of something even if I am the wallflower looking in the room...or broom:p

I was so touched by Nikki and what she has gone through. I lost an uncle to what they said was Alzheimers but it was actually Huntingtons Disease. But I remember watching him go away little by little.

So thats all I can give for an explanation for now of how i felt earler today...Sue:grouphug:

(((Sue)))

I was concerned when I read your earlier post.

I'm so glad you replied again just now.