Manda-Alffe mom gave you a special hug on her post in wonder thread today. YOU are the only one who got a special hug. A hug by name. Barbo and I did NOT get a hug by name. But we are NOT jealous. We are mature ladies, right, Barbo?
Manda, I will be thinking of you (by name) today and visualizing how calm and happily expectant you will be getting ready for your interview-just remember how lucky they will be if they are smart enough to hire you.

Ditto to everything you said Sue.

How did the interview go Manda? We are here for you.

didn't get the job. my life is in a period of major change. i'm trying to keep my head above the water. trying hard.

i have a hard time thinking of only myself in decisions. i always take into account a third party. why don't i realize that i should only take myself into account? i always think about "hmmm the reason my last relationship failed is b/c i moved away and the long distance think didn't work...maybe i should move back home?"

ugh. i hate my ways of thinking.

I'm sorry you didn't get the job Manda. Sometimes it's just a struggle to see the forest for the trees. Keep trying dear girl...something will fall into place.

Manda-you said you are trying-trying hard-that is the key-keep trying and like Alffe said-things will fall into place.

Dear MandaC-I feel your pain,but you can not give up! No one knows what tomorrow will bring,every new day is like a blank canvas,a new start,its up to us what we paint on it! I will put you in my prayers.

i don't want to be here anymore. i'm not getting better. it's been a year since jay and i broke up, and i can't stop obsessing about it. it never leaves me. i don't know how to stop these thoughts. i think i'll only find relief if my mind is no longer working.

i just want to end everything. i'm just as torn down and torn up as i was a year ago. i can't accept i won't hear from him again.

i can't accept anything. i wasn't made for this. i wasn't given the skills to survive emotional distress. i was made faulty. maybe i wasn't supposed to even live this long.

i'm paralyzed.

i hope someone is here. i really need someone.

I'm here Manda