I am overcome with wanting to end things right now. I have pushed everyone away in my life and have no one and nothing left. No one around me can deal with my OCD and depression so they have all left me. I have no one to turn to. I want to end this life of pain and suffering. I don't know what I am living for. My heart just wants to quit. I don't know why it keeps beating. I am so damaged and broken by all who have left me. I know I will never find a companion who understands me and accepts me as I am. So why am I here? I can't fulfill myself. I can't find others to fulfill me. What's left? Nothing.