My depression finally lifted. I've been able to start a blog and return to forums this past few days. To be completely honest, I've been in an extremely deep depression, and haven't really had the heart to do the things that I use to, until just a couple of days ago.

I was doing wonderful until I received a phone call from my father.

"We talked, and decided that you shouldn't go to the family Christmas dinner this year. You're sick, it's obvious, and I don't want you making your problems everyone elses"

That's what he told me. That's not all... he's been telling other people that I have lymes disease, because he's emberassed that I have MS.

This is my father. I spent my entire life worshiping him. He's a chiropractor. When I was little, I would wear one of his Dr's coats, and follow him all over his office. I adored him so much, and still do.

My mother died in 1999. She had bulbar onset als from a sod 1 mutation. I have the mutation, but so far just MS. My father was horrible to her toward the end. She emberassed him just like I do.

My fathers new wife thinks I'm garbage, and has my dad believing that about me. He assumes I'm on drugs because I'm skinny. When I cry, he tells me to stop my whining. He assumes if I cry that I want something from him.

It's just too difficult. I'm thinking about cutting him out of my life, but am afraid of breaking his heart.

Sorry to dump all of my problems here. I am just looking for advice. Any is good.

I hope that none of you here has had to face the treatment that I have because it hurts so much... but if you have, what did you do?

I am thinking about crashing the christmas party to see my elderly grandfather, but I don't want to upset him. He dosen't even know that I'm sick yet, and I need a cane to walk with.

Thank you so much for letting me rant a little. Has anyone else been treated like this because of their ms??? I hope this isn't normal. Nobody should be treated this way.

Hugs. Josi