No word at all from my son. not a peep. Tomorrow is his b/d and he will expect presents. He did call a couple of weeks ago and asked if I could mail his presents to him. I said "nope, sorry, they are here when you are ready" and I havent heard back. His g/f was commenting that they were going to come up here for Christmas and hang out with me, but when my son got on the phone I told him to "not do that!" he said "what?" and I said "tell me stories that you know are not going to come true. Dont tell me what you think I want to hear to make me happy. Tell me the truth." he had to admit that it was probably not going to happen.

DD called at almost sunrise. Happy and chirpy and full of light and cheer. I am so happy she has finally gotten a life full of love. Celiac robbed her of many happy days in the past. She has become a well known local Celiac chef. She makes loads of goodies for the locals and is being recruited by a celiac restaurant.

My mother whined about how much pain she is in, but she is selling her pain pills to my sister. I tried in vain to explain that selling your pills doesnt give you ANY benefit and they WILL put you in jail when they catch you. not IF they catch you but when, cause my sister always gets caught and takes down friends and family when she goes.

I did have a good time with the seniors last night and we packed up tons of doggie bags to go home. One even managed to talk me into going to church for the carol sing. it was fun, even if I couldnt see the read out of the carols.

I cant and wont be held captive by children that are acting badly. I am here when he is ready to come, but I am not begging, pleading or tricking him into it. It really broke my heart that he didnt even call. I wont be held captive by bad family members who wont help themselves out of their own drama. I wont be held captive by this stupid disease. I am going to start planning a trip out of here. A place that is warm, but not hot. A place with sunshine, but not sunburns. A place with water that can be played in, not to sit on the shore and admire. I dont know how, I dont know where, but When starts now. I gotta get outta here.

Thanks for letting me have my Christmas Whine. You guys are great!

Dej...... I'm so sorry your DS didn't call. He will see the error of his ways but probably not until he's in the same situation he's putting you in. I'm glad to hear your DD called, though.

You cannot be responsible for the bad decisions DS is making. I know it hurts and many of them effect you.....maybe not directly but we all worry when we know our kids are making stupid decisions in the name of love.

I hope you can enjoy the remainder of your holiday with DH. What does he think about DS's behavior?

Good luck finding a nice place to escape to. That's a great project to work on during the dreary winter months. Aruba is nice but I don't know if you were thinking of going that far away or not.

It's snowing here and I'm sitting at the sunroom window watching a little redbird and sparrow get the last few minutes of daylight at the bird feeder. In a little more than six hours Christmas will be over for another year. 364 days to prepare for the next one!

((Dejibo)) All I can offer is a cyber hug and understanding. My older son is off in his own world too. Hopefully someday their heads will be in the right place.

Now that trip sounds like something fun to plan and execute! I'm in the land of sunshine..deep south...we have 4 inches of snow and ice! burrrrr!

Awwww, that stinks, Dej, the little turd.

Love and hugs to you.

Got a 7am call from him. His g/f was just stepping out the door to work, and he wanted me to know he was sorry he didnt come up like he planned. (as any good momma should) I told him not to worry about it. to try to do better in the future. The measure of a man is his word. If you cant count on his word, you cant count on his deed. Again, he asked if I could mail his gifts. I told him when he mailed mine, I would mail his. He went on to tell me how much money he spent on his g/f and didnt really have time to get me a gift. *sigh*

I told him that he is not 14 anymore, and he needs to think about his actions and their effect on others. I told him I love him, but his recent behavior leaves me scratching my head. I reminded him that you cant buy someone's love, and to spend all of his money on this girl is going to wreck him. To spend that much money on one holiday even if its for 100 people was not good planning. Women want a man with money in his bank account. The ability to pay the rent or repair the car and if its all gone on gifts then he would be begging for a place to live soon.

I got a lecture on how much she means to him and how its all worth it. OMG! My child is going to get his bahookey kicked by this situation and there is nothing I can do to stop it.

*sigh* Happy Birthday Matt. Its going to be a tough year for you mister.