I hate being like this. Emailing back and forth with my daughter and granddaughter, who live near each other but a couple of hours from me. Granddaughter and her boyfriend will be in the area Saturday and Sunday (staying with family friend), my daughter Sunday and Monday, my granddaughter may stay one more day and ride home with my daughter...

....and they might be at my house Saturday or Sunday, separately or all three at once, plans are up in the air. I'm already freaked and glad I'm communicating with them by email rather than phone so they can't TELL I'm freaked.

So I WANT them to come, whenever they can...but "advance notice" means something different to me than it used to. We only shop every couple of weeks, and the menu plan is for Ma and Pa, not company. Let's see, the plan was to wash my hair again Sunday...guess I'll change it to Saturday...unless I end up going to church...which is out if they come on Sunday...AAAAGH.

The big problem is, I can remember being normal. Vaguely, but I can remember. I don't LIKE being all confused and overwhelmed over nothing. And if telling myself "just relax", "don't worry", "it will work out fine", all that stuff...if that worked, I wouldn't be freaked to start with. Gah.