Sparky! Yes, I remember you! Ahhh, I'm so sorry to hear something crummy has happened to you. Wish I had an easy answer for dealing with stuff. Sometimes all I am able to do is lean on the Lord and wait for it to be over. You don't want to hear any platitudes, I know. But you're in a good place here, surrounded by people who care. And it WILL get better. It won't rain always.

Thank you so much, Dejibo, Sally, and B2Y! It is getting easier to stomach every day. I'm not one to agonize over "Why?" about much, and I already know the answer to that question in this situation. Maybe they've done me a favor. I'll dig for that bright side!

Sally, the company has big lawyers and I have empty pockets. I've requested numerous times that they remove their signage of my presence but get zero response. Internally the company claims to promote communication to all, but in reality it is only communication between a select group of friends. I use the term "friends" loosely because the newest people have no clue what they've stepped into. They don't know any of the company's internal history.

It makes me sad to watch a once magnificent (at least on the outside) business behave this way, causing difficulty for many clients. They have fired or chased away everyone who had been there longer than myself, except one person. Creating a New World Order, I suppose.

Hey Sparky,

I think we're a pretty tolerant and understanding bunch over here. Of course you're welcome!

You're going through the grieving process right now. Throw a few pillows, rage and complain all you want - we're here for you.

C

Sparky,

I'm sorry, I don't have any words of wisdom for you.

Just a welcome back, an I'm sorry for what you're going through and a

I hope things start getting easier for you soon!

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CarolM and nemsmom, thank you for the kind words! A couple days before this happened I told me BF to burn an old wooden plant stand. "Burn it, just burn it; it's falling apart!" I said. Then had tears in my eyes, realizing I was talking about the company I worked for. I knew everything was coming to a head.

Karenr, my department may self-destruct but I believe the company as a whole is here to stay. They provide a wonderful product! Unhappy people behind the scenes will keep quietly doing their job.

Sparky!

Hi I remember you!

So sorry you are going through this difficult time.. all I can offer is a kind word..hugs and know we're here for you.

Cindy

Hi Sparky, I've been here intermittently, and I don't remember you, but glad to see you. I too have bad memories, some of them of work, but more of them related to family and university years. I pray God often to "heal my memories". Some days, they go away. Some days they come back suddenly; I'll remember a situation and see it clearly in my mind, and I may start to cry. And so much of these situations were directly related to my physical limitations--probably as in your case? (I don't know what your job was). Because I looked normal, apart from a slightly meandering walk, sympathy was not often forthcoming. I myself did not know what was wrong, and tended to believe reports that I needed mental readjustment. I tried hard to do that mental readjustment, and most of the trying was wasted, but I must say I did learn some things about myself and life through the "wasted" effort.
Hoping the bad memories go away soon and stay away. Yes you are grieving a big loss.
I hope BF is helpful in these times. My husband was so helpful when I was down, just by being there and on my side.

Hey Sparky! Remember when you met me and my DH for that dinner in Chicago? Somebody else was there but I'm drawing a blank on that. Of course you are welcome here! I still go there once in awhile for their arcade but rarely anymore. I'm sorry they treated you unfairly. You did a lot of work for maintaining that website.

As has been mentioned in the past perhaps it is prudent to remain focused on this community so we can preserve our long standing atmosphere of friendly support and respect for diversity.