[weegot5kiz]

hello one and all, I have sat about the last few weeks feeling a bit guilty on how i have abandoned NT, I am sorry. I had to do some serious soul searching after a bad episode with steroids, at least thats what i hope it was and not a stray schizophrenic gene... yeah it was that bad of a freak out,.... back in oct i was first put on the roids and was on them through march except a two week period and a one week period and that was preds and suda's, unfortunately my iv dose of suda went well the step down however did not they put me on preds for the step down and i had from what both docs say a steroid induced psychosis. yeah that or i got schiz genes hidden, and that is what scares me, my son may have it from his mom and i lived with her for almost ten years so am familiar with it and yeah it scares the hell out of me. only thing that helps is no one one my moms side has it and was able to contact bio father and no one has it on his side and no on his side has MS i found out too.

so where the hell have I been, hiding on facebook and not just hiding but keeping my day occupied with senseless applications and games, which to me is better than dwelling on the blahs of MSbs. see back in november i knew i was getting depressed and even posted a few comments about the welcome committee on the special forum for the ones who welcome, it was just a horrible winter and there were so many bad luck breaks out there and i just get too attached and want to help everyone all the time and cant and it pains me to read some of the bad stories and issues folks have to go through and it got to me, and I even asked curious to remove me because i saw it was dragging me down and this was in dec, and then like i said i freaked out on the step down and it cost me dearly and almost cost me more, as it is i lost total respect of two dear people who i will miss dearly and i lost the respect of my wife that night. I still have no answers other than i flipped out. like i was possessed and it was not pretty thats for sure.

I just feel i owe everyone an explanation, especially to those who helped me so much and who i care for deeply and miss a lot. Face book for me is good, because even on there i am helping other MSers out i have a new friend in germany with ms two more wait three more in aussie land (oz) one in one in omen and one in England and a few more in the states, but i limit my helping because that is one of the reasons i vacated NT, i felt if i couldn't even figure out what happened to me the night i flipped and i should not be offering advice to others. im sure many can understand that. I am sorry that i abandoned some of you and am sorry if my sardonic humor could of been used to make you smile, but as i said felt i was last person to be saying anything to anyone. I miss many of you a lot and i mean that. I hope this finds many of you doing well and can not make up for lost time but will try to swing on by more often and say howdy howdy, i am also waiting on a friend who does beautiful dye dye work she is trying to make me an MS sucks tye dye if it turns out nice i will post a pic, love you folks a lot... yall mean the world to me and again I am sorry


Peace

[SallyC]

((((((((((((Frank)))))))))))) *Smack*

[azoyizes]

Dear Frank, I am sorry for what you went through, for all the pain and agonizing and stress it caused you.

I'm glad you find mindless fun on Facebook. I do, too.

People here have missed you, and I think it's good that you explained why you've not been coming to NT. You are loved here, and your friends here worry about you.

Now get yourself back to FB, I think you have some crops to harvest and more letters to find!

[Twinkletoes]

That's too bad, Frank.

We missed you here, but your own mental health is the most important thing. Do whatever you need to maintain that, even if it means you don't post here as much.

Whenever I feel the need to smack you, I'll just go to FB. But as long as we're both already here: SMACK!!!

Ouch! I take it back! When I typed that, the kitty just attacked my foot with his wicked pointy little claws and teeth!

[PolarExpress]

That's called "karma", Twink..
Frank, we all appreciate the smiles and support you give..Just don't forget we're all here to offer "mutual" support and love, which means all are here for you, too. Nobody has all the answers, and we sure don't expect you to. You're great just the way you are, so get your flawed self back once in awhile to let everyone know you're OK. Now, to your naughty spot young man..

[Friend2U]

Take Care!

[ali12]

Thank you for posting and letting us know how you are doing, Frank! I wondered why you weren't posting on the forum as I know you are often on Facebook but haven't seen you post on here much so thank you for explaining!

So sorry to hear that things have been so tough for you lately! I had no idea that you had been dealing with all of this! I hope you start doing better real soon!!!

We have all missed you but as the others said, your health as to come first before anything else!! Please pop in when you can and let us know how you are doing!

You're in my thoughts!

[Desinie]

Good to hear from you, Frank. Sorry to hear of the rough time you've been having. Hang in there!

[SallyC]

See how many people love you and miss you, Frank? Now get your butt back here and bring the lovely Debbie with you.