Hi friends,
I am just sad today. I really miss De. I am sooooo use to running her everyday to so many appointments, tragedies like ingrown toenails, abscess tooth, PM appointments, mental health issues, even her calling at least dozens of times a day and trips next door to see me, or me her.

The emptiness is setting in. I go down everyday, I have her cats here, everyone avoids the subject, their way to cope and keep me from crying.

I hate hurting so much, I miss her
I do love the support prayers and friends that have carried me, you’re so valuable. I just am having a bad day today.
My ex is beyond even being human; looking for money from welfare and social security to reduce his obligation. I am so heartbroken, he is looking to save him self money.

My husband told me to call, and they say well her father (MY EX) already did!

Say a prayer and send a hug,
Love
Di

DiMarie

my prayers are lifted for you.

we love you

Cheri

awww sweety...you have my love and lots of prayers.

tell us a funny story about de from grade school. i know my kiddo's don't think all the things they did or said were funny at the time, but we sure do now.

one of the funny things i remember about my brother from 6th grade. he was the shortest. and hyper. oh my goodness could that boy drive a teacher and his class nuts. he had the most awesome teacher that year.

when she could sense that he was ansy and gonna cause trouble...she send him out to go run around the playground. lol. i would see him from my classroom...running and running. it sure worked. he got straight a's. he ended up being 6 ft tall.

there will be days like this. i know. but many of us understand and will always be here for you. i'm really sorry about your x. it's just the way some people are. they will never change. all we can do is pray for them and not let them bourdon our hearts.

Di, I suppose you will have many up and down times for quite awhile. Such a long time of the care given and now an abrupt change and the loss of De.
we are here to listen and help if we can, we always care about you.

Di,
I am so sorry that your heart is empty and broken. It always seems that the weeks and months that follow sometimes can be the hardest. The house is empty and our everyday busy trips and visits are no longer there. Maybe if you can just try to stay busy that might help you out a little.
Your so sweet and I know how everyone here wants to help you heal..
Your in my prayer that your heart will heal with time and your emptiness will be filled with wonderful memories and busy moments.
Many gentle hugs my dear friend..
We do all Love you..
Dawn

Dear Di,

I am so sorry you are having a rough time. My heart and prayers go out to you. We all adore you so much and want to help in anyway we can. I know the emptiness is hard. Give yourself some time to grieve and heal. We are here for you.

Sending hugs your way

Di, my prayers and thoughts will be on you today. You will come through this.


Anne

Dianne,

I found this short music/pictures and I hope it gives you some escape from the burdens you carry.
You are the rock that your family looks to and that is a hard place to be when you are sick yourself.
God bless you for your efforts and hard work.

www.takingabreather.com

Love,

Martha

Only time will truly help, not heal, but help lessen the pain of your loss. We are all here for you whenever you need us! One thing you might try is a massage - human touch is so very comforting right now, and massage seems to release some of the strain and sorrow we keep bottled up. Don't be surprised or embarrassed if you start crying - it's very healing!

And please try to eat and rest even though you may not feel like it - your body needs it. Ask your Dr about adjustments or additions to meds for sleep/anxiety if need be. You still have so much on your plate, you can't continue to do all of it if you don't care for yourself first.

Sending e-hugs and prayers for comfort, strength and peace, plus

all my love, beth

Thanks friends. Something about the kindess I receive from friends, many I never saw in person, to understand and care to tell me what I mean to them, when my own siblings don't. I would drop everything even in the middle of the night to help them.....

Nothing can lessen my loss, you are all helping me and caring, being here means so much.

Work went OK, my supervisor did ask me how I felt about the hospital releasing De so close to her passing, about a day and half. I didn't get it then, but she must wonder if I am blaming in a legal or moral way.

I am just angry for an avoidable loss, but not slefish enough to have her come back to life so filled with pain. But, that I miss her and there should have been help. She waited all weekend for an opening or until Monday for readmission, She was not suicidal, but it was too tough to take care of herself, she felt the med's were not right.
She never unpacked a suitcase ready for admission the moment a bed was availble her in our county.

I am watching my grandson tomorrow and Friday, I really am going to find it tough. He is such a blessing, but I am very weepy right now.

I wish I had a Mom or sister to be here for me,so I don't always have to be the rock...
I love you all,
Di
PS, Tissues are just wimpy, I am up to carrying dish towel.