[Nellyzen]

So well...the "unexpected" happened, after almost half a year off I got my severance package.

Now don't get me wrong, I love new beginnings....except when I doubt my ability to actually do the job.

I browsed the job sites, there are plenty, but I found myself feelings afraid of failing. Afraid of failing to physically do the job. Of course I still have some recovery to do but once I do get released from my surgeon and I do go out there and get a job...then what? What if I work for a few days and the pain creeps back?

I don't know, I'm feeling insecure and kinda down.