I think a lot of TSers learn to live with their TS and it becomes a part of them...

don't get me wrong...after 40 some years of twitch and shout (and cussing voluntarily) the tics can wear a person out(but that's another subject for another time)

I often battle the co-morbids, the things that often, but not always come with the TSers...

the OCD's with obsessive thoughts, the ADHD/ADD, the depressions, the Asperger(no, I don't have Aspergers) issues...(and maybe some suicidal ideations)

currently, mine is OCDing with Depression....

I seem to be stuck in a mode...a mode of "bubble"

some people would call that "wall"

to me, it is more of a bubble, because it is NOT solid...but it is a very very thick bubble...one that cannot be penetrated with the sharpest needle of knife in the world....one that can bounce a cannonball back 100 times the speed directed at it....

and it isn't made up of small bubbles, it is this big gigantic bubble...kinda like I am stuck inside a huge gum....

this "bubble" has made me mute....

it has made me ex parte from my end and I cannot see the other side...

and I wondered if the others feels the same from the other end, that their side is just not getting through....

I had a long conversation with my wonderful wife about this yesterday. What's great about her is her ability to understand...

I tried to explain the best that I could to her why I am feeling this way, that I feel so selfish and that I can't seem to communicate right now...

we're going to have dinner with some very very good friends of ours yet I so very much want to cancel it...yet, I am NOT going to...

this bubble has become thicker in recent times and it's really driving me crazy...

and it has intensified my tics...

well, all is relative...one thing triggers another and vice versa...

I WILL be OK...I just ponder about these things...

and I wonder if the parents feel MORE for us when they see us twitch and shout vs. how the TSers themselves feel....

DMACK pointed out something in another thread that he was more angry when his TS friend was being teased...and it really resonated with me cause I believe that's how my parents and friends feel as well, that they would feel/felt more angry for me than I would....

I think that is an issue that perhaps need to be brought out sometimes as a subject for the TS parents...just my two dollars worth...


anyways, hoping to talk more about this in the future....

(((((BIG HUGS)))))) to all

PS, I have made some truly awesome friends here at NT that don't have TS, but please feel free to jump in and post anytime...I so value your opinions and FRIENDSHIPS....