I have been dealing with Post Concussive Syndrome, Post Traumatic stress syndrome and now agoraphobia. But the lonelyness is the darkest part. Knowing that I cant go back to my job, knowing that I cant pay my bills, and live my life the way I did before. The harder I try to hold on to what makes me me the more I reolize that I am lost forever. I will never be the same. I will never enjoy life the way I did before. I cant even manage my own time and money without messing it up.
For the first time in my adult life I am a burden. I am on assistance and my aunt is going to move me out of state. I know it is because she loves me and it's for my own good, but I feel like I have no control over my life.
And I have no control over myself. My dr says I'm depressed and I'm on meds for it. But to be honest I just wish I was dead and think about it a lot lately. There is just no more joy or happyness left in life so I don't really see the point any more. Is this normal for a TBI?