You're engaging in positive behaviors to address the negative thoughts, similar to what you'd learn and practice in psychotherapy, so you should give yourself some credit for being able to do that.

When it is possible for you to do so, I agree with the advice to go back to your doctor (or even just call their office and explain you lost the original script) or a psychiatrist for another medication consultation.

Hang in there,
DocJohn

I totally understand anger. That is what almost did me in. My daughter married a man who has a control issue. I am not allowed to see my daughter and grandchild. There was a trust involved, and Greed over ruled in a horrilbe way. It has been 9 years since I have seen my daughter. My grandson is now a little over two years old. I wasn't even told she was PG. I had to let it go. I had to let that part of my family go, or my anger and hurt would have destroyed me. It took a terrrible toll on my health. You bet I went for council. I am now at peace. It took a long time for me to get a handle on my anger and control those negative thoughts. I hope you can resolve your issues too, so you can move forward, and be in a better mental state. I will be thinking of you. ginnie::

1 year 9 months with TBI. I have had very brief, fleeting thoughts of suicide occasionally throughout this time. Only recently have the thoughts lingered more than 2-3 minutes.

I have never thought of a plan; it's just the feeling of not wanting to exist anymore. I would never commit suicide because I have children and grandchildren who depend on me and who would be dramatically affected by such.

A brother of my son's best friend committed suicide yesterday. About 6 months ago he suffered a TBI from a motorcycle wreck. They said he talked about suicide every day since the wreck. I guess that is what brings me to say what I have felt.

I sure do understand those feelings. Someone on this site said something to me that makes sense. When your pain exceeds your ability to "cope" these feeling can and do crop up. I have felt the same way through the severe surgeries I have had. I wanted to give up at times too, and plotted my way in my head. Since that time I found Neuto talk. This added a way to cope better when I became afraid. I found new coping mechinisims, new ways to think, and good direction to go for help when I needed it. Having friends understand you is a good first step. I also found the joy of reading. I bury my head in a book, and I go somewhere else, anywhere else than where I am at. It distracts the thought process, and brings adventure. I come to this site, where I feel others, and they feel me too. That compassion goes along way toward helping me feel better about my condition. This is like a big counceling family, where you really arn't alone, but are surrounded by good souls who will care about you. I am sure there will be others, to give you other ideas with coping with these negative thoughts. Nothing is easy, when a person is overwhelmed, but if you keep coming back here, you will indeed feel better. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I am here to listen anytime you need a friend. ginnie