It sure feels like it.

I'm thankful that a lot of my symptoms have either resolved or stabilized, but the one that doesn't seem to get any better (its actually worse) is my ability to express myself "properly". I used to have a silver tongue. My ability to articulate what I'm saying/doing was a strong point for me...and now its pretty much diminished. I have trouble communicating with people in the simplest situations. I use a bunch of small words and run on sentences to get what I'm trying to say out. I have a lot of pauses, "umms and uhhhhs", I'll sometimes not be able to get what I'm trying to say out so I'll just say "Never mind" or "You know what I'm saying, right?"...Its very very annoying. Its gotten so bad that I feel uncomfortable talking to people...especially those that I don't know very well.

I'm starting to feel like a mute. I feel awkard and embarrassed to talk with people now...I'm avoiding social situations by ignoring phone calls, not going out with friends that much and just not wanting to speak to anybody. Every once in awhile, maybe once per day or a few times a week, my personality comes bursting out of me and I get on a roll. Everything I'm trying to say comes out fluently and with ease...but it never lasts long. Its like an adrenaline rush or something. When it happens, I feel like I'm healed, like I'm able to articulate myself like I used to...and then it goes away and I'm like CRAP!!! Lol...and this didn't even fully manifest until the beginning of March. That's 9 months after the initial injury...and it gets worse all the time.

What can I do? Is there some kind of medicine that could help me express myself better? (I know, probably not)...umm...What about exercise? Or will that make it worse? I noticed after having sex a few nights ago that I was able to express myself with ease...but it only lasted for 10 min lol. What do I do???

A lot of people on here post about stimulation, crowds of people, lights; exacerbating their symptoms. Like headaches, dizziness, etc. Well, any type of stimulation only makes it harder for me to express myself...and some brain fog/slowed thinking. I'm unable to watch TV, listen to music, or drive for more than 10-15 minutes because it causes me to become pretty much mute.

Yeah, anyways, so this pretty much turned into a vent but I'd still like to know if anyone deals with something similar or what they think I should do about it...I love being able to express myself and I miss being able to make my girlfriend smile with the things I used to say....so this is really hard on me. Why won't it get better???

Nick