My names Jason. I'm 20., I've posted on this sight I few times. I'm in such a tough spot in life right now. It's been 7 months since my concussion, before my concussion I was in a huge depression about loosing my first love. We dated twice, once from age 14-15 and another time from age 17-20. All together I've been infatuated with this girl since I was 14. She was not only my love, she was also a best friend. We spent everyday together. After she broke up with me I fell into such a depression. I didn't know how I'd ever get out of it. I'm still in it, S a matter a fact. But then on top of that, this concussion.


I got this concussion on new years eve. I moved to california to try and get a new start on life. My family lived out there so I stayed with my brother and my dad. Things were a lot better. I was skateboarding. And meetiń new friends, spending time with family. When new years came around I went to a party with a new friend a made. The house where the party was at was located on top of this huge hill, a really massive hill. Before new years arrived another friend of mine asked if I wanted To go get food with him, I was in a good mood so I said yea. We walked out of the front gate of the house. I jumped on my skateboard and proceeded to ride down this hill. I got speed wobbles and the next thing I know I'm back at the house throwin up. My friends who dot really know what to do in a situation like this let me sleep it off.

I woke up the next morning feeling like ****. I went home and since I don't have health insurance my dad told me to try and rest it off. I tried to rest it off for three days until eventually he had to take me to the ER. I got a ct scan and they found bruising and bleeding to the brain. Two contusions. The doctor prescribed me some form of steroid medication, something like dexamethasome.
I took that for about a month and it made me feel really energetic and also hungry. I had such a big appetite. Looking back on it, I know that everything tasted normal so I didn't have any loss of smell or taste.


After a month of being on those mess. I went to the doctor and he took another ct scan. The bleeding had stopped an he asked if there was anything else wrong. I said just the headaches. A couple of weeks later out forge blue my smell becomes all distorted. So a month and a half after the accident it becomes all distorted. Is this normal? Is there a better
Chance of it coming back because of this?


So now I have so many things on my plate. Serious problems. The biggest one probably being the heartbreaker I'm enduring from this breakup. It really hurts me inside.... When I think about old memories and realize how
Much things have chaned and that I may never have her back again.... I want to die. On top of that my concussion is preventing me from moving on with my life. On top of thatt, my smells distorted and I get depressed over that when I think that it may never come back. I smell unpleasant smells and I cant live like this. I just can't. It's been 7 months and everything's still distorted.



I feel like of my smell came back things would be much happier on my life. Can. Anybody please give me advice. I can't seem to get per all this, I can't seem to even get by, everyday is hard enough to get through. I have dreams about my ex and wake up almost having a heart attack.

There's this clinic in washington dc that I plan on going to. It's loads of money but apparently there specialists in smell and taste disorders.

I had to quit my job out in California. I'm now back in the town where my heart was broken to a million pieces. I need I now forward. I can't live like this.




Sorry about the spelling errors, I don't have Internet except on my phone.