Hi, i'm new to this site. On july 5th 2012, my husband and I were in motorcycle accident. We were going 40mph oy when a straight away when a van turned from the oppitsite lane directly into our path. We both flew over the van. My husband walked away with bruises and scratches. I was in the hospital for 4 days with mtbi, concussion, whip lash and a left broken shoulder blade. 6 weeks later, they found I also have a fracture in my right shoulder and 50% of the rotator cuff is partially torn. I ended up admitted again a few days ago because of a relapse of post concussion syndrome. Dizzyness, double vision, unsteady gait, loss of sensaation in my hands, my left leg gives out randomly, buzzing in my ears, dark spots in my vison, vommiting so im home bound and useless.. I cant lift more than 2lbs, my brain is mush and im getting very down. i want my life back. i didnt think id go thew stages where i pretty much regress to day one. Meanwhie, all the van driver got was a $175 filure to yeild ticket and a dent in thier door. my kids and husband have been so paitent and helful but all i feel is guilt. i want my life ack and i want my marriage back. I mean its great but its different cuz my sickness is alwys lingering. Will today be a good day or a bad day? will bad momemnts sneak in on the good days? I'm only 30. and i despise most of my doctors. sorry needed to vent. I need a friend who gets it.