[ClumsyCharlie]

Yesterday, was my one year anniversary, I got upset when I realised that now when I say 'a year ago I was fine' it's not true any more. I pointedly stayed up, trying to piece that evening back together in my mind.. I called my friend who was there at the night, and made them recount the moments which I missed due to being unconscious. When the hour struck 10, it was officially a year and I crawled back into bed. I think I expected to feel magically better.. or tragically worse.. I felt as I had all day. Fatigued, confused, and pain.

I know my injury could be a lot worse.. The last year has been a blur, mostly of hospitals, I wanted to do something exciting to prove to myself that I'm in fact improving, as I'm always told. But I couldn't watch tv still, enjoy music, I've heard so much about something called gangnam style. I've never heard it, and won't be able to do the dance that my peers do..

Did anyone actually manage to do something exciting? or realise that things are improving? I think I need some hope..