Ever since my injury, I've found it hard to make connections with people. When you meet someone, you usually become friends with them because of shared interests, activities, mutual friends and your/their personality. Well, what happens when you lose ability to participate in those activities/interests you shared with that person? What if your personality has drastically changed? I've lost so many friends in the last year and a half because of this. They are still there, I have them on my Facebook, my phone's contact list and we occasionally talk.. .but its not the same anymore. I'm not the same Nick that would throw parties at the house, BBQ on the front porch with loud music playing, hit the club and be the only white person throwing it down on the dance floor or the guy that would invite you over to whoop you on a video game. I'm just not that guy anymore, so, what's the purpose of hanging with anyone?

When they call me, or hit me up on Facebook, I don't have much to talk about. Why? I don't do anything anymore. Once we get passed the part where I tell them how the kids are doing, that's pretty much the end of our conversation. I stay home, pay bills with my disability check and take care of my kids lol. "You want to hit the strip with me? ", No, that would cause me problems. The casino? Nope that would be even worse. How about pool or bowling? Nope ,every pool hall and bowling alley in Las Vegas plays music. I'll be in the car with someone and they'll put the radio on and I'm like "Can you turn that down please? "...lol. People don't want to hang with someone who can't do anything fun.

How do you make new friends? My communication has taken a toll due to the location of my injury, my response time in conversation is slow (it takes me awhile to come up with a response), sometimes I can't respond at all, my personality has changed, I haven't found any type of activity or interest that doesn't mess me up, I don't know who I am anymore and I have nothing to talk about. I've got this dark cloud in my head that is blocking me from accessing information stored in my brain.

I'm a male version of a HOT MESS! !!

I'm becoming very depressed with the direction my life is going. I almost want to delete my Facebook so I don't have to see and read about everyone else enjoying their lives lol. Just seen a pic of one of my friends drinking a tall can and BBQing some burgers. Two of my favorite things to do.

Idk...where do I start?