[andromeda]

I haven't been here in a while because I've felt too ill to contribute to anything.

Everything's taken a turn for the worse lately. I think I may be spiralling into depression.

I feel emotionless. I can't sit still. I can't focus enough to read, write or listen.

I can't sleep or nap.

I don't enjoy anything. I don't want to talk to anyone.

I can't go for walks because I get faint.

I can't play my guitar because my hands are numb and tingly all the time. It's hard to move them where I want to. This is probably upsetting me the most at the moment, if I could feel upset.

I feel like I keep going in and out of consciousness, even though I'm awake. It's like time jumps about.

My memory is dreadful. I met a couple of new people this week and I'm already forgetting what we talked about, what they looked like even. It's horrible and makes me feel hopeless.

I took on a bit of work but now I'm going to have to stop. It took me 20 hours to do what should have taken one. It completely floored me.

I can't seem to do anything other than sit and stare at the walls. And then I fall asleep, wake in the morning and wish I hadn't.