How terrible about the job loss(es)! What an enormous stress that must be on top of your injury. Can't imagine. But hopefully you can still focus on healing and on the really important things in life...most of us value love, peace, beauty, etc. Material things like a nice place to live and some tech toys also help

Good you had a better day. I had a good day yesterday too. One day at a time! And slowly you will heal.

I agree about the creativity. In terms of eye strain and writing, I am dictating more and more. The apple products (and maybe others) have an amazing dictation ability....so accurate and easy to use...I am doing my journal that way). Long emails too...and I should do this using that method too, know that I think of it

Enjoy the day!

Wow that is a LOT to handle. Woah.

I'm glad to hear you're cutting yourself some slack and being kind to yourself!

One thing I thought of when reading your post - did they tell you when to do your eye exercises or do you just choose? I ask because I was told our eyes are most relaxed in the morning and that was when to put my prism glasses on for a few hours each day until I could tolerate them all day. Just thought this info may help?

Hope you're deep breathing and having a good moment when you read this.

They said I could space it out during the day but that would be up to me. I chose to try to do it all at the end because they make my eyes hurt a lot and I didn't want it ruining my whole day! Bad idea. Lesson learned!

I'm doing okay today. I'm keeping track of what i'm doing so I stay self aware, because having a set schedule hasn't been working well, nor has flying by the seat of my pants (as my pants seem to be Velcroed to my recliner). If I keep a record of my day, it makes me aware of how much time I'm wasting not enjoying life or at least being productive. Today, I can proudly say I've only wasted 50 minutes of time staring blankly and wishing I could get up and do something. It's an improvement. I'm going to do a little vacuuming and then reward myself with some time out on my front porch reading and writing before my daughter gets home! Then my husband and I are going to take my daughter outside to ride her trike at a local park.

Even when things aren't going my way, I still have to embrace happiness wherever I can find it. Depression isn't a choice, but how I cope with it is up to me. I am choosing to fight it tooth and nail!

I hope everyone has a good day!

I too have been struggling with some depression due to my TBI. It has completely changed my lifestyle. I can't do the things I love to do anymore: lift weights, run, socialize, go out for some beers with my friends, etc. My fatigue keeps me from accomplishing much else. In the end I am trying to stay positive because I know I will not be like this forever and I will get better. I refuse to give up and let my TBI keep me from everything that makes me happy.

Good luck to you!

But, that tv is a killer, all the crap, endless info, drama, more needless info. you are bombarding your brain.
A little doesn't seem to bother me, but only what I choose to watch in advance.
Before my 6th concussion, I was a personality, nothing stopped me, had many hobbies, now well I have to understand that if I am able to do anything enjoyable today, it is to be celebrated. Even if it is just enjoying a beautiful cloud.
That feeling sorry for myself thing is hard to kick, but when I realize that it is based on self centeredness it helps me to reject it.
Try some kind of simple hobby, I made a little sand thing that I put rocks in and rake, like the japanese concept, seems lame for a strapping strong doer like I was, but it is kind of soothing.......

That sounds very much like me, until recently that is. Question: Do you feel refreshed in the morning?

I can only relate may own experience here... I did not sleep well for many, many years. That is until I was diagnosed with, and treated for, Sleep Apnea.
I now have more energy, I'm motivated and I have much better stamina.

Think about it...
Jamie

My dad has it, so I'm very familiar, but I don't!

I just dropped my daughter at daycare and she was really excited to go, but I didn't want to take her. I wanted to keep her with me, because being my myself is just so hard. It's all dreary outside, which doesn't help, but today, the full weight of our predicament has finally hit me. My husband is a teacher, so if he doesn't find a position for the fall, we are screwed. I wish I could apply for jobs too, just to feel like I'm doing something, but my previous work was as a proofreader or an archivist, which are both jobs that require heavy use of your eyes. There is no way I could do either job with my eyes as bad as they are. Even this morning, they hurt so much, I'm just sitting here in the dark.

The only job openings for my husband in this city are at schools where he would not feel safe and I would not feel comfortable having him there either. The school where he is teaching currently has already had three guns in the building this year, and a month ago, he was physically intimidated by three students, one of whom has been convicted of serious crimes. So really our only option is to move to wherever he can find a job. We were hoping to move closer to family or friends, but I'm worried that the jobs are so limited that he won't be able to find one somewhere we might want to move. Before, I was thinking the worst-case scenario would be that we would have to move somewhere we didn't want to move, but now I'm worried that the worst-case scenario is that he won't find a job at all. What would we do then?

This is all a lot of pressure on him. He was pretty down yesterday. I just feel totally helpless. The thought of having to pack up our house and sell it is just devastating to me. And what if it doesn't sell? What would we do then? I don't want to move. Just wish there was some other option.

Thanks for reading. I don't even know where to turn anymore.

I have been following your post and I think people have been giving you reall y good advice. But I would like to add that you need to try to stay positive about the job situation. When you mentioned school, I thought I would add a thought. I am a teacher of 25 years. Sometimes a new job can be fantastic. Working in a school is an amazing place. Kids are wonderful everywhere, at all ages. Just be hopeful that there will be a silver lining in this whole experience for you and your family.

I don't post a lot because my pcs makes it difficult for me to write.

Thinking of you
Be kind to yourself

Su seb

Dfayesmom,

It sounds as if your have more on your plate than one can imagine! I understand how you must feel hopeless. Lots of HUGE life challenges happening at the same time.

I think the only thing to do it to take it hour by hour, day by day, and don't give up hope that things will work out. What is so difficult about these situations is that we don't know how or when they will resolve. So being in the present and doing what we can in the prsent is a good strategy. Not easy, mind you!!!

Hang in there. Sending positive thoughts your way. Hoping that the future brings you good things, some which you may not have expected!