I have been seeing a Psychiatrist to get Valiums, because my GP will not prescribe them. and since i was poisoned by Psychiatrists, all their diagnoses were Psychiatric: bipolar, anxiety, panic, OCD, agoraphobia, trichotillomania, and finally when I "recovered" from all those, they said I must never have had them and said i had a "Borderline Personality Disorder"... that was 2 1/2 yrs ago. I was so mad i couldn't even address the issue until now.

I asked my Pdoc 5 months ago to reassess my Dx, but she said she didn't know me well enough, which is true, since they keep changing every year or 2, and I see them each for 20 minutes 2x a yr.

I took in massive quantities of documentation, including online tests and historical documents, and tapes of "consults", and at least this one removed the Borderline Dx and put me as PTSD. We did not even address my cognitive impairments. I don't care anymore, I just want them to give me my valiums and leave me alone.

What really made me laugh is that she put my former Primary Dx (bipolar) as "in remission", because everyone knows it can't be healed! Well, i did it.

But now i'm noticing these little mistakes typing and even not being able to finish a sentence, not having a word, having to point, and my helpers treating me really badly for it, like i'm making fun of them.

I'm worried that it's mini-strokes, but as I read the posts here, I remember that I have had 5 concussions where I was unconscious for at least half an hour and once for 2 hrs, or more, they let me go to sleep! I guess i might just be experiencing cumulative damage......

Thanks for reading...
StormE1

StormE,

If you have been taking Valium for a long time, it can be a part of your memory problems. Benzos have a well know side-effect of memory problems.

It would help if you could post the different medications and treatments you have received including how long you were on the various meds.

Your BPD diagnosis can also be a misdiagnosis that would be more accurate as PCS or chemo-brain. Chemo-brain is the result of chemo-therapy and has many of the same symptoms as PCS and poisonings.

Have you read the Vitamins thread in the stickies at the top ? You may find brain nutrition to be a big help. The injured brain needs nutritional help.

I am confused by your mention of 2 1/2 years vs 22 years ago. Typo or just incomplete information ?

Thanks for thinking about my problems. You are not the first one to mention the effects of "long term use of benzodiazepams". What most people do not understand, or maybe believe, is that i only use them when i need to, and that is not usually more than 3 times a week, sometimes not at all for two weeks. I had only used up an Rx one time until last month. My stress loads lately have been higher than ever, from various encounters with medical providers.

I found out about the BPD Dx 2 1/2 yrs ago, tho I think more than one Psychiatrist thought about it, not believing that I had been poisoned. I have seen other people who were in the same condition as me, for the same reasons, more than twice, so i know it happens. They know it too, if they would be honest. What really gets me in hot water is that I won't take any more Psych Meds. How could I ? And I insist on these bizarre alternative treatments, like acupuncture and holosync and meditation...

Hahahaha, well, it's good to be so far advanced in my rehabilitation, and I did get the Psych. to change my Dx to PTSD. Now i'm fighting to have that BPD Dx "purged" from my files. Perhaps my health will prevail until i see the end of PTSD too! Wouldn't that put a kink in their tails!

Thanks for the gift of listening...
StormE1

Dear Storm,

Welcome, just had a read though. I am sorry you are having difficulties. This struggle between PTSD and BPD is not uncommon. Many on call GP's will give this diagnosis in the UK when they are called to a suicide attempt in the UK. It seems BPD is a standard diagnosis.
PTSD is vastly on the otherhand misunderstood.

Do you know may I ask what triggered your bipolar? Do you feel it is a chemical imbalance or do you feel that something else has culminated in this response in your brain?

Thinking of you

Peachey, see post of 5/19/13, just above:

QUOTE: [since i was poisoned by Psychiatrists, all their diagnoses were Psychiatric: bipolar, anxiety, panic, OCD, agoraphobia, trichotillomania, and finally when I "recovered" from all those, they said I must never have had them and said i had a "Borderline Personality Disorder"... that was 2 1/2 yrs ago. I was so mad i couldn't even address the issue until now.]

i was never diagnosed with cognitive impairments, even tho i was tested and they were severe and most of the cause of my need for assistance.

StormE1