hi everyone thank u for words of encouragement, ur thoughts and inspiration. I am still have a hard time as to what is happening to me. My family goes through my mind all the time as to how they have been affected, buy my poor judgement on that day i injured mysrlf. I still worry about the symptoms never going away, intense headaches with facial numbness along with dazed feelings, feelings of disconnect, lightheaded, nausea comes and goes, major fatigue, insomnia, anxiety, depression...its so easy to give up , but i fight everyday, i let my frustration out by crying, people say im depressed but crying is a outlet for my frustrations. I don't know if i will ever get better, im here today for my family thats how i look at it, as difficult it is, really what choice to i have? my wife and i have contacting my neurologist to see me again and has finally agreed, please if any of have any comments or questions i should relay to him i would appreciate ur help. i hope we all get our old lives back today because we deserve it.

Ed

Ed, get a piece of paper and write on it "by my poor judgement on that day I injured myself. " Then burn that paper over the toilet and flush the ashes. This is useless thinking that will only hold you back.

Even those who really made bad choices like driving drunk or riding a skateboard in a risky way need to do the same. The only purpose of remembering the past is to learn how to not repeat it. We can not change the past. We can only influence the future.

Some of our injuries were the fault of just dumb luck. Others due to the innocent mistakes of others or ourselves. Some due to the irresponsibility of others. Some due to our own irresponsibility. Learn from the cause, but leave the past behind.

What can we do to move forward ?

There are lots of things we can do if we leave the ball and chain of the past behind.

Mark, you really know what to say. I wish I could put into action your noble words, but it is so hard. I guess we all can relate to the Ed's symptoms and his regrets and putting loved ones through difficult times, but I hope that Ed and I can move beyond this and build a good life. Ed, I hope the neurologist is helpful and let me know what he says. It seems incredible that in 2013 there is nothing that can be done for us!!!

Great advice, I could not agree more. Ed, you fell on some ice. I walked in front of a moving train. Others have been assaulted or have been in car crashes. Stuff happens. We cannot change the past. We move forward, whether we like it or not.

I firmly believe that I have recovered to the point that I have because I never got stuck in the "why me?" and always focused on "what is the next thing I need to do to get better?"

Your family probably feels very lucky to still have you with them!!! It is important not to waist energy you need to recover on negative thoughts.

One of the hardest things we have to accept is to respect the time it takes to heal. No two people are the same and it takes what it takes.

Showing your family what to do when face with adversity will be a life long lesson for them. Everyone will face adversity at one point, this happens to be our time.

Keep Truckin and try to keep positive thoughts.