Not everthing is going to show up on the mri's, I just feel Dr's should know this, ugh..

Depression is a nightmare, completely takes over your whole life, many people do not understand, "Just pick yourself up..." well, if someone could, they would! they need help and understanding.

This may help, I was waking up ever single night in such terror, shaking, a huge wave of panic went through my body, it also happened when I was nodding off...a friend of mine suggested Rescue Remedy, I put 5 drops in water in the evening and I swear I don't wake up in terror, a miracle...it just stopped, maybe it's a coincidence but it stopped the night I started taking the RR.

Yesterday, I saw my 2 PT's and an OT who said my eyes are "abnormal, more than we thought"....sat and cried right in front of her, I swear they feel as though they are bouncing around, I cannot stand it, severe headaches...ugh...I am uber emotional now, have to lie down in the dark for 2 hours because of these headaches....I told the OT something is terribly wrong..my brain....

I asked her..."Can I work out yet?"...No, "Can I start hiking up hill in rough terrain?"...nope..( I knew what that answer was going to be, but thought I'd try!!) I feel like a completely different person going day by day getting nothing done.

Having a very bad day, sorry to go on, this is about you, not me, I know I have to be positive but it's so tough, thank God for this forum, feel better...hugs to all..

hug accepted and returned and don't ever Ever feel bad about going off on a tangent. you did it. I liked reading what you wrote. not that I want you to suffer but at least I know i'm not going through this nightmare alone. lost a high paying job, most all my friends, and family thinks i'm a junky or a psycho for going on about how terrible this horrible illness is!! I hate it and I wish they would find some kind of cure or better treatment. I appreciate all the comments and I will try some of the suggestions. we all have to hang in there with the help of each other because we matter. we are people just like everyone else except that we are sick and in need of help and comfort.