I do have recurring themes, brutal arguments with family member whom I have had some past arguments with in real life. also, floods and tidal wave, very scary. i'm afraid to go to sleep because I know i'll wake up with muscle tremors, my body burning and from a terrible nightmare.

mrsmith,

In your marathon days playing soccer, how many times a day on average do you think you headed the ball ?

It may be a contributing factor to your condition.

An electronystagmography (ENG) test should be well accepted.

markneil,

Any doctor who can use a negative MRI to say you have nothing wrong with your brain needs to surrender their medical license. They are ignorant of the science and anatomy of brain injury.

Can you get your doctor to prescribe a rental of a recording Pulse Ox meter ? It may shed some light on your nightmares. The slow mornings suggest a lack of oxygen during the night.

Sometimes none, sometimes a ton. I actually had a pretty hefty scholarship, and I loved the sport, though my hatred of my condition is greater than that love, I will never head a soccer ball again.

I really think it could be, I never really had concussion like symptoms, but over all those years that is really a lot of small impacts. I didnt know any better though, especially when I was younger.

Does anyone else get dizzy when they pick something up too quick? I usually try to bend down with my knees slowly and pick whatever up, but sometimes I forget about my condition and pick it up by bending my back pretty quick, and when I come back up I can't even move for a few seconds because I am so dizzy.

Research shows that the average soccer player who routinely heads the ball has a 9 point lower IQ than those who do not head the ball. The key issue here is Sub-Concussive Impacts. They accumulate to equal more damage than a single serious concussion. The problem is there is no time out taken. Head the ball then run to follow the play.

I say this to bring up the point that you may also be suffering from Multiple Impact Syndrome. It is very common with football (the brown long one not the round one) and hockey players.

My point is for you to try to accept your current state and learn the many work-arounds and accommodation that can help you lead a full and almost normal life. As you do this, you stress levels due to frustration will lower and you may find yourself improving greatly.

My best to you.