This past Sunday my husband and I did a lot of house work, including cleaning the floors on our hands and knees. I have been feeling great, except some headaches, so I thought I would be okay. This week has been one of the worst weeks since I really began to recover in October. The vibrations/tingling/pulsating in my body during sleep came back, and sometimes when I'm awake. I can hear something in my left ear that sounds like blood flowing, the same sound you get when you try to move your ears. A deep rumble. It's constant at night and difficult to sleep through.

I have been sleeping (in and out) for long periods - 9, 10, 11 hours. My brain fog has slowly returned this week and today I feel like I'm at square one. Last night, a German Shepherd whipped its head up and knocked me in the nose. I'm fighting the temptation to obsess and worry over it. While in and out of sleep last night I woke once to find my arm totally numb. It did come back but not with tingling, it just slowly returned to normal as I mentally woke up. There is something about my mind being alert versus being asleep that correlates with the tingling, pulsating, etc. It was not the arm I was lying on.

I'm waiting for the neurologist to call me back about the possible side effects of nortriptyline (10mg, been on it for about 3 weeks for headaches) and fear that they will increase my gabapentin. I've had these feelings before the nortriptyline but the ones lately are a more muted version. The reason I fear that is because as I add more medicine, I feel like I'm not figuring out the source of the problems and only complicating things by adding more medicines.

Wow ... I'm just amazed at how quickly these symptoms return. I'm having regrets about overdoing it Sunday, and back to old thoughts about why the heck did all this happen originally. I know that had the "concussion specialist" I saw early on had told me to stay away from coffee and alcohol I'd be in a much better place right now. Basically, I am feeling sorry for my 29-year-old self today. I'm also worried about a repeat of the night I had a crashing headache and woke with a droopy face. No one has ever been able to tell me what in the world that was, and when I google it, it sounds like I had a stroke. I don't know if that's the case, but I'm afraid of it happening again.

I had applied for a part time library position but did not get the job. I was thinking of volunteering at the hospital 2-10 hours a week in order to help me get on my feet again but now I am fearing that will not be good for my recovery. It's been more than 6 months. I am not working or going to school, and our life plans as we knew them are gone or at least on hold.