Well, I finally went back to work today for the first time since January 10th. They are having me work part time 4 hours a day until the middle of May. Today I really only did some minor heavy lifting for not that long and then the rest of it was non physical work.

Needless to say, I dont feel right. I know im not fully healed to begin with, but the Dr feels im good enough to go back. Im feeling very very doubtful, and even slightly depressed right now. Im hoping its just because its my first day back, and my body is not used to it, but I dont know if I can handle something I was once so great at.

Im hoping as the week, and next week even, goes on, maybe my brain will respond better. But I have not felt this physically exhausted in a long time. Constant headaches are back now (even though they arent nearly as bad) as well as some dizzyness and some minor lack of focus.

Im in a catch 22 here, I dont know what to do. If I go down to my HR dept (if things get worse) and inform them of all of this, theres a good chance I can lose my job I think, even though it happened at work. Like I said, im hoping its just because my body and mind is trying to get re accustomed, but man, im scared. Sorry if this sounds like jibberish, im just not fully focused, and im having a small bit of anxiety.

This was work related, correct? If you do not feel right, tell someone... if this is work related and they fire you, sue them! I am not a litigious person but that is not right... how is the doctor determining you are ready?

Not really sure. I told him I wanted to go back to work (also said this since day 1 though.) But I also told him what I posted a few posts back as well and he determined this part time deal.

As the night goes on im getting more fuzzy and the constant feeling of wanting to puke continues. Im going to give it a few days, better or worse, just to make sure that maybe its just my body and brain getting reaccustomed.

I just feel so lost now, and im not an emotional guy by any means and im getting slightly emotional of my fear of not really getting better. Im going to attempt to sleep, but I dont see that happening.

kevbo,

You need to find somethings to stay occupied with. I play a lot of Solitaire on the computer. Playing with a deck of cards is also good. Moderate stimulation is a good way to work through these times. Your anxiety is not helping you get better.

Anxiety could be the cause of your nausea. At this point, your nausea is more anxiety than PCS related.

My best to you.

Ill admit some of that feeling is def from anxiety. Not all though. It started almost immediately after the lifting at work. Although now that im worrying about it, the increase is def from anxiety.

Are you on any meds to help with the anxiety?

Im on prednisolone and thats it. So far Ive spent all morning digging small trenches with a shovel and im in a very bad spot. Heads throbbing, dizzy, legs are feeling extremely weak. Dont know what to do.

kevbo,

The prednisolone could be causing your symptoms. The symptoms you mention are listed as side-effects of prednisolone.

The up and down head and body movements could be too much movement. Try to work with less head movement, if you can.

Whats the length of that meds effect? The last one I took was Tuesday evening, simply because it made me feel jittery.

The pred should be out of your blood by now. It's half life is 2 to 4 hours. The psychological side-effects could be a bit longer after a period of continued use. I doubt it has much effect on you at this point in time.