Father in law passed yesterday morning. He's been in the hospital since June. My husbands and my parents live a few blocks from each other so we packed everything up to go stay at my moms

So did my sister and her husband which is my husbands brother.

<giving all time to process...>

Too many people at my moms and animals. Movement, sound, tv, talking, just too much. It was chaos to me. Before, I could have and have handled it. All my symptoms went crazy. Hubby packed all my stuff and took me and the animals home

There are 8 kids on one side and 8 kids on the other side, aunts, uncles, friends. Such a huge celebration of life which is beautiful. I made it for a bit but will have to nap. Miss that never ending energy but I'm thankful to be alive and able to participate as much as I can.

I can't handle chaos anymore. Simple is best even when it comes to the decorating in our home. Simple life.

I follow a young girl of 15 that is going to die any time now. She has a tumor at the base of her skull. It's inoperable and has not responded to treatment. Even at 43 I have lived a great and eventful life. This little one is just a pup. I think of her now when I want to get mad at my situation and I am determined to live as much as I can and try to accept when I must sit out.

Life is unpredictable and not a guarantee. Live as much as you can any way you have to with those you love.

Jenna