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Hi Guys, first post here : )

I have a concussion from a surprise vasovagal syncope incident. I'm 28 and otherwise healthy.

Its been three months of pretty much 24/7 migraines. Dizziness, flooding, fatigue, exhaustion.

My career in the science is demanding, and I must bill all of my time to clients in 15 minute increments. Because of this, there is little room for an 'easy day' at the office.

It's been three months and I am feeling better than before, fewer headaches, less brain fog, but I am still unable to work 40 hours. Now I am returning to part time work and I struggle to meet 24 hours/week, which I must do in order to still have health insurance which is now more important to me than ever.

I am taking nortryptaline for migraine prevension and to help with insomnia. I also have ADHD which makes it hard to focus to begin with, which is not made easier by the brain injury. My neuro doc says I should not take the ADHD medicine because it could lower my 'headache' threshold..

I feel like I am out of options here: no money (the money I should have is stuck in disability insurance bureaucracy), struggling to meet the bare minimum and trying to not feel depressed or overwhelmed. People I talk to don't really know what I'm going through, since they cant see it. I feel like people see me as weak now, I feel like my self image has suffered. I am not a strong young man like I am supposed to be.. I am weak, disabled, in pain, useless. I have F my Life moments here and there, but I am really trying to stay positive. I have cried more times since this happened than all of the times put together from my adult life. I don't have a way to keep doing this. Any advice, ideas, stories, suggestions? I just don'[t want to feel alone right now.

PS. I am using MMJ, Cranial-Sacral, Massage, Acupunture, Nortyrptiline, exercise, lots of rest and good sleep etc to help heal, and I am seeing progress, but the main issue is dealing with Life while I continue the recovery process.