[Jap4iP]

To make a long story short, I received a concussion in March of 2013. I still experience symptoms of PCS. I know I'll improve, but it is just hard for me right now to see other people have "normal." I am not saying that others cannot have normal. I am just saying that I feel like I'm in a bike race and my tire is flat. Other kids my age are going to college, while I'm basically at home all day. I am not physically able to have a job or go to college. Whenever I am bored I overindulge in an activity because it has been such a long recovery. For example, I have been playing basketball with other kids. The other day the ball hit my head. Although the ball hit my head gently, it scared me because I don't want to get worse. Whenever I am on the computer, I'll be on for a long time. Sometimes I don't care if something will make my head feel like crap because I have felt sidelined for a long time. I am taking off this first semester of college to rest. I am hoping and praying to go to school in the spring. Even as I type this, my head feels terrible. I just feel tired of resting, tired of not taking control of my life. I know God will bring me through this, but it is hard to keep experiencing the effects of an injury I received a year and an half ago. Does anyone else feel this way?