Thank you so much to all who contributed ideas for me. You can't know how much this means to me. I am going to go through the ideas one by one and see what I am able to accomplish. I know that I still have some physical and mental limitations due to ongoing symptoms, but I hope to try each and one of these activities.

I struggle daily with questions like:

Will I ever be able to live my life again?
Do I deserve this?
What happened to all of my hopes and ambitions?
Will I be able to make it through the day?
What is the point in all of this?
Am I all alone in this nightmare?

These are not obsessive thoughts, but they run through my mind as I attempt to rest and I can't seem to shake them entirely. That is why I need to occupy with mind with something else.

These activities you all have suggested will help in cleansing my mind of these negative thoughts and hopefully allow me to regain some positive energy for me to push forward on my journey.

Please feel free to provide more ideas. And I will update you on what seems to be helping. I just finished my first guided meditation on YouTube which quickly brought me to tears as I released the negativity.

Thank you so much. I wish everyone a good day and the ability to achieve all the goals in your life that you have ever wanted.

-Dan