[DannyT]

My mental state continues to worsen and I am stuck inside all day, I feel like I'm losing my grip on reality. I'm beginning to become afraid to go outside of my bedroom because of things happening to me.

For example, a few moments ago, I was taking out the trash to the end of the driveway (my big event for the day) and on the way back up, a branch of a shrub grazed the top of my head. It wasn't hard by any stretch but I still feel some sort of impact. The anxiety I'm feeling from it is unreal and I can't seem to get the thought of it making my condition worse out of my head.

This comes on the heels of a hit to the upper shoulder two weeks ago which has caused me all kinds of neck and head pain as well as dizziness, irritability and anxiety.

Furthermore I'm dealing with visual static caused my taking Prozac for 9 days. It is very pronounced and frightening because it is there 24/7. It makes it hard to relax and is there when I close my eyes. It makes it very hard to sleep as well.

I'm coming up on 9 months of this torment and I really don't know how much more of it I can stand. I'm trying to get counseling of some sort but I can't get up the effort. I haven't gone to my OT/speech or pt since I hit my shoulder and I'm growing so depressed. I don't know what to do anymore.

I should add that my girlfriend seems to have reached a tipping point and is stressed out to the point where she just gets frustrated at me. It makes us both worse but I have real problems that I need to talk about. This thing with my vision is so scary.