Could this be something else other than the concussion? I've had incidents BEFORE my concussion where I felt like this for a short time.

Could it be something like derealization or depersonalization ?

Or a combination ?

Like I said I honestly don't know. Which makes my depression and suicidal thoughts worse because I feel like no one can help.

Derealization or depersonalization are not conditions. They are just symptoms of something else.

Your previous issues would support getting this blood work done. Thyroid issues and such can make all of these other symptoms, depression, fatigue, dreamy feelings, etc., much worse.

And, stop trying to day to day critique your condition. You need to endure day to day but your recovery is a week to week and month to month situation.

Mark, who do I ask to get this blood work done? My pediatrician? Or someone else?

I'm re posting on this thread because I still am extremely worried, upset, and absolutely shocked at this point.


School is going to be starting up again soon and I am having massive panic attacks. This dreamy/numb feeling is ruining my life as we speak. I cannot seem to bare with this any more. 10 months of this constant symptom is making me insane. I cannot picture myself being able to do anything within school with this feeling. If I don't feel better before school I don't know what will happen. Probably a repeat of last year.

Getting bullied, made fun of, exclusion, etc.

Last school year I suffered it out and got D's and C's.


I have breakdowns and cry so hard over this a couple times a week. Every single day its there and I try to have strength and not think about it. But I just cant do it anymore.

I've tried every treatment you can think of, nothing has seem to really work.

Been getting into fights with my family because no one knows where to turn anymore. They think I am crazy and need to talk to someone.


This dreamy/numb feeling is always there. Its like a devil haunting my life. It started as soon as I hit my head and has NEVER gotten better since.


Hopeful that someone will have a new answer. But all we can do is 'hope' right?

Sam,

Can you get your family to take you to the concussion clinic at Mass general Hospital ? http://www.massgeneral.org/children/...s.aspx?id=1689

It is one of the best.

Looks good. But the question is would they be able to get me back to normal?


I will show my family this and talk it over with them. I'm willing to try anything.

The Mass General program is the best in Massachusetts. You local care is light years behind.

Sam,

There is an old saying.... "one step at a time." Try to not let your mind wander into the worries of what can go wrong tomorrow or even an hour from now. It does take practice.

I sort of adopted this idea of not allowing tomorrow to ruin today and it has helped. I try to limit thoughts of tomorrow and the future only to what is necessary for proper planning.

Do your parents ever read this site,maybe they can read this and see if it helps them understand you any? I have owned my own business for 20 years so I have plenty of experience at my job. I missed 4/12/14 through 1/20/15 from my injury. It has been difficult this year....I have had a hard time making decisions and what was normal and easy for me prior to my injury became very uncertain, I had to ask my sons who work with me lots of times if I was making the right decision.

That is the bad side. I AM GETTING BETTER and you will too. In fact, I believe I will actually come out of this better for the things I have been forced to learn and I think the same can happen for you.

I imagine that this is very difficult at 15...it has been for me and I have much more life experience to draw from. Be patient, be courageous and stay real close to your parents, talk to them and ask questions.

I don't know if this will help any, I hope it does...your going to be ok again. I will be praying for you.

Bud

Sam I saw some studies online that seem to think de realization and depersonalization can actually be caused by head truma so it could certainly be this.
As you mentioned, who knows, it could even be something else.
My advice to you would just do you best to relax, as hard as that is, and consider getting on some medication.
I felt a lot like you , and about 6 weeks ago I started lexapro, and it really helped with my mood swings and my depression. It made me feel hopeful that someday it will get better.
Finally remember that you are super young. You have lots of time. Certainly someday, someone will be able to help you or things will naturally get better, and you wil be a stronger person for having to go through it.
Ps I saved a kitten a couple weeks ago and it has also really helped distract me. He's great company. This might apply to you if you are an animal guy

Sam, was it you who was taking Amantadine?
Are you still taking that or tapering off that?