I apologize first as the “quickly” is due to trying and failing, to leave this world. Something that whom I was? Would not ever of been a thought.
I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD hiding TBI from 20+ years ago. The fuse was lit after my support pup who, in my mind, heart & soul, embodied my personal family.
I went from not believing the Doc to in shock as to deteriorating so very quickly, all in a few week span. Pain killers, all meds have been exhausted- currently on high doses of 9-10 with only 2 that help/do a little of what they’re supposed to. Anti-anxiety & one for energy & focus.
Is there hope for a cure? I now cannot make much sense from what I read & the Doctor is getting frustrated as I cannot remember what’s been said after frequent, 2 hour video calls. Unable & unwilling to leave our home as this is where the last few memories of us reside. Early 40’s and both parents refuse to believe. They’ve left me when needed most despite the strongest human bond I had, with my Dad. He needs a life with my Mom & doing so requires him to let me go.
Oct 4th marks 10 months though the past 3, just into 4 days? Rapid & very significant decline. A smartalec response to a text from my Doctor regarding adding “2+2”… his reply? At this point it would take superhuman powers.
Yes, I admit to being fearful. Is anyone able to spare a moment to help me know if there’s realistic hope as faith, my foundation? God is now the only one who should ever fear me.
Would anyone knowledgeable on PTSD & TBI be willing to share their informed opinion as to what is thought to be done by me?
Physical pain & body failing me is ok. Having lost most of my memory now & the only thing that’s kept me on Earth.. memories of my sweet boy, taken from me? Turning into a “vegetable” I will fight to the end which apparently is closer than I care to admit.
My sincere thanks & gratitude to any/all for their help. I’m lost & alone. Asking for help? This is the 2nd time in 10 months. The other being upset at this website last night… I did not know a mere email confirmation was all that was needed. If you folks are reading this? Please accept my sincere apologies. Anger is not part of who I was. Seems I’m not equipped to handle it appropriately. Two rare moments in a row with enough strength to seek & actually ask for help. With the little hope left in me, I will leave it here for others… so many others who suffer from this “recently unknown to me horrid thing”, I hope life is treating you all kindly. Either take care, or, so long.