My husband has been visiting his mom for the week and just came home today. It hasn't been a good coupla days for me. I'm completely exhausted, and to be frank- it's good that he's been gone because I didn't have to 'pretend' to be me. Pretending to be 'ok' makes me even more tired.

I was clearly exhausted when he walked in the door. He asked, haven't you been sleeping OK? Yup, I said, I've been sleeping fine- I'm just exhausted.

He didn't get it, bless him. He doesn't understand that being exhausted for me has nothing to do with sleeping at night. Today was the third day this week that I've 'cheated' and taken a three hour nap during the work day. I'm trying NOT going to feel guilty about it because I did make it up later- but still the idea that I have to sleep while being paid to work bugs the heck outta me.

I love him dearly, but he just doesn't understand the absolute exhaustion.
I'm not sure that anyone but someone in my shoes (you guys) can understand this. So frustrating and, to be honest, embarrassing. I feel like people just don't understand and it makes me worry about stupid things like people's perception of me.

I realize that I need to get over this particular issue. I've always been worried about what people think of me. It needs to stop.

Purpose of this post? I don't know. I'm just venting, I guess. It's just nice to have this little place where I know that people will understand.

Thank you for sharing yourselves. It has made a huge difference to me. I need someplace where I can just be "me". Thank you for that.