I wanted to say hello to everyone.
Some, I've met on the RSD side. I also have TOS, some discs, like that.

Two accidents, one in 83 caused the rsd/tos, then in 98k caused the tbi/discs.
So, it's over a decade that I have this TBI, and it seems like pcs, or something.

I take a variety of meds, the pain crosses over into the tbi, and doesn't help.
Stress. I can handle a lot, but now, I'm coming to a divorce that's been coming longer than I've had the tbi. I feel I have PTSD,, too, because my second wife, has taken everything my family (Parents and I) have ever built (two business') my bank accounts, threw my children (whom I raised and I OUT) of my house, her name is not on it.
I have so many property losses, and was well insured for the accident.
My lawyers ALL screwed up, probably because of my lack of ability to communicate with them.


So, now wife realizes there is NO pot of gold, and pushes the divorce foward, she has been taking $1100/mos. from my disability for many years.

I'm just so dam wound up, and it keeps rolling in my mind,, that my kids won't talk to me, because they warned me, but I just didn't know what to do, I was close to comatose for those first few years. She's really got me cornered. My last attorney wouldn't answer my calls for 5 years, and if he did, he just "yessed" me. He won't give me my file, which has my Pre Nup in it.
I'm usually so good at giving things up to God.
But now, I"m a shaking mess. I can't sleep without nightmares, I can't wake with out crying.
I've never been such a mess!
I know
that so many have it worse. But I sometimes feel as though my heart will stop.

I had quite a subdural hematoma, and they wouldn't operate to drain it because it so deep, at the brain stem.

I'm sorry, I'm rambling now.

Anyone have a formula for getting back the faith, fighting the worry, stop the shaking?
Maybe I should reach out to this new lawyer, and see if I can email her some info about my illnesses?
I just can't imagine being ready for an appointment tomorrow afternoon, I don't even remember what she told me to bring!?

Ideas?

Pete
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