oh BMW I sure hope it all works out and that you will be inspired and feel hope and encouragement again.

you have such talent. I hope you find ways to be able to use that in any future job or enterprise.

(((((((((((((((BMW))))))))))))

thanks much much chemar. doc called today and I have apt. in oct.
after I get all my ducks in a row and my floats tied down I will be back around.
Thanks for the nice words good to hear when havin a crappy time.
keep your umbrella up ...the rain aint stopped here yet (my citrus trees loving it.)
thanks again chemar
BMW

good that you got your appt BMW

yep, the rain sure is coming down , but at last the stream out back here has flowing water again...been puddles all summer and so the birds have been hanging out by the lake up the road instead...hopefully they will be fishing in my stream tomorrow

will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers

Cheri

There's something very liberating about 'giving notice and walking out' of a job when is becoming too much.

I did that three years ago when I had some other health issues and severe plantar fasciitis. It came to a head one evening when I was on an afternoon shift and I had to do a compulsory personal annual work/goals appraisal. It was about 10.30pm and the person doing the appraisal with me started going though the questions.

All I could think of at that point was; my main goal is to come to work, do my job competently, get through the shift without killing anyone and get home. When she started on about stating the three goals that I wanted to achieve in the next year blah, blah and how I would achieve those goals....I simply said " there's no need for us to go through this, I'm resigning as from now" she looked shocked and said to me "oh I suppose we don't have to do this then" - duh!!!

I came home and told my DH who was a little shocked but not surprised, as each time I worked he would have to come out to the car when I got home and help me in, as I could barely walk. I didn't even have to work out my notice either, as by the next time I was next rostered on I had a splint on my leg and they wouldn't allow me back for safety reasons. A month or so later they gave me a farewell afternoon tea and gifts, which was very nice!!

Well had apt. with new pain doc.
who promptly said NO he will not work on my neuro stim. it is a blue moon kind of thing he said. and I thought it was just those lovely neuro docs...
but I kept on keeping on and got another apt with diffrent new doc
going to reprogram with a medtronics team. and if that fails to help then we consult for surgery to repositon the leads. I dont like that last idea in the least tiny way. I dont want anyone messing with my leads!!!
They cant make me have surgery can they ? they cant take this out of me unless I agree correct??!! say like I went to have them repositioned and then I woke up to find I have no stim unit anymore that they took it out instead of fixing the leads ???!! they cant rip something out of ya when you are in the sleepy with out you agreeing before hand yet i bet it has happened ! I cant even find any posts of Ks. . . in the land of the lost guess I should go ...they say seek and ye shall find so off I go.
Peace
BMW

I collect dolls by Ashton-Drake. I don't have to go out of the house
to do this. I always look forward to a box at the back door when UPS
brings a new one. This is silly but I look forward to a People magazine
on Friday. Just little things can keep you going. I watch my dogs play.
Our blind Golden Retrievers romp around the front portch. We keep
them in a area that is safe for them. I also watch movies or Court TV.
I watch Forensic files and Investigative reports on MSNBC. Any way
I do keep my mind occupied. I see a great Phychoigist once a month
to cope with all thats happened to me.He wants me to call a friend
I use to be close to but I have pretty well isolated myself from the
rest of the world. When I got involved with NeuroTalk recently was
the first time I have corespondad (sp) with any other people in 5 yrs.
Hugs,
Doodle bug7

thanks for posting at me DOODLEBUG, I sent a p.m. to you so look in your box.

PEACE
BMW