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I have been analyzing my drinking behavior for over 4 years.
Basically I have social anxiety issues.
I drink to feel social and to deal with other people. just getting ready to drink put me at ease...the anticipation put me at ease as well.
I really like beer. good beer. and many other alcoholic drinks. but my need for good sleep wins. I had one beer tonight at whole foods and quit with the bartenders help. She poured me a big glass of water which I drank before leaving. Picked up a spagettti squash and raspberries.
Hoping that the one pint of beer doesn't interfere with my sleeping tonight.
We went for a brisk 2 mile walk around the neighborhood, did not have a huge dinner ate at a good time.
I should sleep tonight with my regular meds.
If not then maybe something is amiss.
I also really do not want to regain all of the weight that I lost.

Had a great lunch of chicken schwarma and hummus and lentil rice and tabouli yummy! Ate with my friend Paula, none of the guys showed up.
I think our lunch gang is breaking up.
sad....
Dinner tonight was sauteed lemon pepper talapia with edemami, like lima beans but soybeans.
2 pieces of chocolate...will have an apple later.
Having my girl friends daughter over for dinner and she is going to help me do labels on my billing papers. A job that I hate doing. She is a freshman at the university here and has helped me before. I pay her $10 an hour, she is so worth it!

bizi

138 this morning.
Well I slept much better last night, woke up once or twice but was able to go back to sleep.
yeah!
I think better sleep wins over beer!
bizi
Finally getting into the shower, can't remember when that happened last....geesh!
This must be some disorder.

bizi

I am very proud of my self.
Went to a musician's talk where little Nat talked and played.
It was very entertaining!
There was free beer there, none that I liked so that was easy to pass up.
But then I saw the mango margaritas....oh my favorite!
That was a test.
Good sleep won!
It was a no brainer for me!
I did not feel deprived at all. I happily made the choice.
wow!
bizi

I'm still reading, bizi, just that pains are limiting. Your meal descriptions make my dieting oh, so hard - I have been slipping for a couple of weeks, overnight with the Depression and Mirtazapine - you make every dish sound like a banquet.

Congratulations on choosing sleep over a favourite drink, that took strength of character. I hope it continues to be worth it.

Dave.

I should be in bed now. I decided today that I will do the cajun cup 10K tomorrow morning.
I need to finish registering so I can get an official timing texted to me. I did it last year and completed it in 1 hour and 33 minutes. I had stopped training in june when I had the injury to my right thigh muscle following the 5k memorial day run....was so depressed about that.
that i stopped training for 6 weeks and got out of the habit of going to the gym and had all kinds of excuses to not go.
Today my girlfriend talked me into signing up.
Wish me luck!
bizi
it starts at 8am!!!

Bizi, I hear lots of positive things in your recent posts, especially your honest self-assessment of the reasons for your drinking - well done!

I hope that the 10 km run goes well .

Hi bizi,

Catching up on your thread again.

I know many people who use alcohol for social anxiety. There are other ways to overcome social anxiety, too. Studies have been done, in the past, showing how holding a drink helps people, as a social prop. Sometimes, people decide to give up the alcohol, yet still hold a glass or a bottle of an non-alcoholic drink while socializing. Practice makes perfect!

Alcohol is notorious for interrupting sleep.
If I have even on alcoholic drink, my sleep is disturbed all night.
I don't drink very often, it causes me more issues than not. I also don't like to mix alcohol with my meds.

You are impressive, bizi. You are doing an outstanding job with managing your life, especially in the areas where you have expressed concerns.

Good luck in the marathon!

We are lucky to have you here, sharing so much about your journey.
You are an inspiration, for sure.


DejaVu

thanks dejavu!
It is actually only a 10 k which is 6.2 miles.
Nice to read your nice note this morning before I go, one quick cup of coffee and throw on my clothes and out the door I go.
have a great weekend!
bizi