As you can see from my signature, this month is my 5 year survival of 2 surgeries for aneurysm, 3 strokes, 4 seizures. Aside from being sad all the time a new wrinkle has come in. Trouble walking distances, standing for a long period and all I want to do is sleep. It was just because it was I was so bored sleeping made the day pass but now I am zonked all the time. I can sleep for 4 hours in the afternoon and still fall asleep at 8.

I am seeing a therapist, working with wheelchair fencing staying busy. But I have not met my expectations. I feel like I am such a loser.