This sounds like a mixed state that you are in.
If you don't mind sharing what meds you are taking...I would be interested in knowing if you have ever taken abilify before?
I wonder if it is time for a med change...ya know sometimes they just don't work for you any more...that has happened to me this last med change.
PM me if you want to sweetie.
I worry about you being there...and am sorry that you are suffering so.
(((((HUGS))))
Your avatar makes me smile every time I see it. :)

your avatar makes me feel warm! I did have a medication change recently.
Dr.Moussavian added 1000 m of depakote and raised the risperdal from one to two m and raised the klonopin from one to two m. He decreased the geodon from two sixty m to one sixty m and raised the paxil to 37 1/2 and I am still on topamax at a 100. I tried abilify but it caused mouth movement. I tried lamictal but it caused gum soreness. I tried welbutrin but it was a nightmare. I tried ambien and lunesta and they didn't work. I tried trazadone and it didn't work. I tried lithium and it didn't work.
Bobby

Bizi
your avatar gave me the courage to choose my avatar
Bobby

hi Morgy,
'Just wondering how you are doing.
Mari

Hi
thanks for asking...I am not sleeping...how is your sleep coming? are you still using the ear plugs? yesterday i read two books and I started on the third one and decided just to lie in bed and listen to music....I feel so wired....I am meeting my best friend and another friend for lunch today...I don't know what shape I will be in since I didn't sleep at all last night...oh and yesterday I hardly had any coffee...not on purpose but at least it proved it is not the coffee I drink. Abby kept me company most of the night....Yuki finally gave up and moved off the bed...Snowy did it much earlier....I guess Abby knows how beautiful she is....she doesn't need to worry about beauty sleep....She really proves that she is very content to have twenty four hours of attention.
Bobby

the building is still on my case....i had an appointment with Dr.moussavian today. It was wonderful. I am going to be seeing him again every other week for a while. I had two separate dreams in which I needed him. We decided while I was going through this trying period it was best to go back to the original schedule. He wants me to have a house cleaner come in every week.
When I called Vera, she apologized and said her doctor said because of her allergies she could no longer work for me because I had cats.
Dr. Moussavian repeated at least two times that given the circumstances I am showing remarkable improvement. He made me feel so good.
I again told him that I am hardly getting any sleep but he didn't come up with any suggestions. We already tried sleeping pills. I told him I was up most of the night obsessing about my current problems and then early this morning I realized I was doing the best I could and felt a huge burden lifted from my shoulders. He said to the effect that was great thinking and that was exactly what I was doing and what I should be thinking.
At one point during the session, before I mentioned the topic which the building was disturbing me about, I said I was worried about mentioning it to him because he didn't believe me at first when I had previously mentioned a previous complaint brought by the building. I must feel very comfortable with him to have confronted him like that.
We also talked a little about politics and it is amazing how much we agree.
We both believe in open borders. We also talked about the Koran as he is Moslem....a very varied session.
Bobby

Dear Morgy,
I wish that the building would get off your case. You have enough on your mind. Are there any organizations that can help you deal with the building? I don't know....

Good news that you and Dr. M feel that you are showing improvement. That is affirming to hear it from someone else even if you know it for yourself.

Take care.


Mari

Hi Mari
First I was shocked that Dr.Moussavian said that I had really improved. My friend thought it might have a lot to do with my confrontation of him and then my ability to talk about politics and the Koran and internation repercussions in the face of all my personal problems.
I too wish the building would get off my case. My close friend Alice even suggested indirectly that I cut my hair short to appease them. Talk about a police state. My friend Robert came up tonite with his precious dog Mickey and I had the nerve to tell him one of the things the building was saying about me. I am too embarrassed to write it on the forum. He said it wasn't true in his experience and that it wouldn't be grounds for eviction either.
I am pretty sure the social worker is coming back one more time and I will tell her and see what she says. Also I didn't sleep much last night from worry. Thank goodness for Zucchero and Andrea Bocelli...I didn't try to read through the night but rather just listened to music to soothe my troubled soul lol...
Bobby

YOur living situation sounds really hard to tolerate....I wish that you could find alternative arrangements...where you did not feel so persecuted...to think that they want you to cut your hair....
hurumpf.....
bizi

Hi Morgy,
Do you have plans for Thanksgiving? Something different?
I feel like I should do something that I normally don't, like go for a walk on the beach (it is warming up a bit). I don't know yet.

Those buiilding people are weird. Just plain weird. I'm glad that you have Robert.
mari