wondering how you are doing?

and how did the appointment go?



~ waves ~

post when you can...we are all ears...
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Well I went to my appointment and did what my therapist said to do by writing how I felt down. I gave this information to my doc and she became terribly concerned. She started asking me what I thought about going inpatient and stuff like that. I tried to get myself out of it but she said she wanted to do a med change and that it would be unsafe to do it as an outpatient. I knew what she was saying was total crap but what was I supposed to do? In I went! That was last Monday I cannot remember the date but I didn't get out until yesterday. I am not sure what places like that are supposed to do but they do not help me at all! For all of you that going inpatient does help I am not knocking it I am only saying it isn't for me. I actually feel worse now than when I went in. I wasn't handling stress very well when I went in but now I cannot handle anything. I had to go see my therapist today and that didn't go well so I left there crying. Normally my therapist and I get along but today he was very hard on me! After that I had to go to the bank and there was a mean manager there that I had words with. I didn't cry while I was in the bank but when I got outside in my car fell apart. I could barely breath! I had some klonopins in my wallet so I took one of them and tried to calm down enough to be able to drive home. I got home and called my mother and told her about all the horrible things, she calmed me do and things have been much better for the rest of the day. I just feel that I have absolutely no coping skills and my tolerance for stress is gone. I don't know if I left the hospital too soon or if there is something else going on but all I do know is that emotionally I cannot handle another day like today!

collinsc

OMG this sounds awful.
There should have been support group meetings and individual meetings/therapy sessions.what meds did she put you on?
I am so sorry tht you are feeling like this and am very happy that your mother was able to support you.
we are here....
shame on your therapist for being hard on you...you just went thru a bad experience....you need support and encouragement.
you are trying to get better.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Hi,
I was hospitalized in a gov state hospital (not well funded).
I was there for 4 nights and three days in a mixed mood.

Counting in-take, out-take, and seeing the pdoc in the hallway twice, I saw a pdoc for 5 minutes. I got no med changes, no support groups. Nothing.
I left as bad off as I was when I got there except they kept my wallet too. (What a mess it was after a car accident to find out I did not have my wallet and needed my driver's license!)


Did you get the med change that the pdoc promised you?


That is so awful.
I'm sorry.


M.

welcome back! i wondered where you'd gone off to! so that's where.

i'm so sorry you went through this. if i recall correctly you did not have a pdoc but your regular GP was scripting your meds, is that right? i wonder if you had a pdoc if the hx would have been "necessary."

from the different stories i've heard, the care in hospitals varies a whole lot, from pretty decent to really bad. i suspect however that going inpatient is almost always traumatic/stressful to a degree. at times, it still may be better to go in than not. and that partly depends on the quality of care.

i went inpatient, once, voluntarily once. it was ok, but i got less than i had expected. i had been in stop-the-world-i-want-to-get off state, non-stop and for too long, and it allowed me to do that. they did sort out my meds. but when i got out i too fell apart totally at first: instant overwhelm and anxiety. i felt better relatively quickly, however. i hope you do too.

i am glad your mom is there for you. i hope today is a good day, for you, to start with.

~ waves ~

p.s. once you settle down, if in fact your GP is scripting your meds, i would seriously consider pdoc-shopping.

Mari,
I did get the med change that was promised. I am not too sure of how I feel about that though. They took me off of one of my meds, trileptal, because it was lowering my sodium level and put me on lamictal. They thought that would be good with the geodon and the klonopin but then they decided I needed more. This is the one I wish they never put me on! Lithium. I have anorexia and this med causes weight gain. I already have control issues, if I start losing control over my weight I am not sure where we will end up. I am so sorry for your traumatic stay in a gov hospital. My hospital was private so I can say it was very nice. I just wish that the doctors and the nurses would listen to you. I honestly believe when you are admitted into one of these kinds of places the immediately think you are stupid and have no brain!

Waves,
I do not have a psych doc but I have a nurse pract that works as my psych doc. My general doc hasn't touched my psych meds since he put me into a manic phase by playing with my drugs. I only see him for referrals and check ups, everything else is done through specialists. I would love to get a actual psych doc but if I leave where I am now, I lose my therapist. I have a great relationship, usually, with him and I would want another therapist.

collinsc for both of you!!!!

I too became low sodium on trileptal..and switched to lamictal which has a high sucess rate! I am sorry you struggle with an eating disorder...that must be hard.
bizi

Collinsc

I'm glad to see you back. We will be here to help all we can. I didn't
realize the sodium problems trileptal causes. But I want to thank
you guys for this information.

My son takes a very high dosage of trileptal for his seizures. And I dont
see us switching for a while. I hope we don't have this problem.


Lamictal was a medication that my son used to take for seizures, also.
And he did well on it. So I will hope that for your problems you do
well on it too.

Donna