Dear Waves,
I did feel that it was increasing anxiety (Maybe not exactly activating because I haven't had that since I was put on Verapamil.)
I was getting anxious and weird.
It was only only one day of this because I do not feel like continuing another day to see what will happen.

The usual dose of klonopin I take at night calmed me down a bit.

I'm feeling down.
'Have to see tdoc on Wed.

M.

this does not sound good. it is ok if you want to stop it period. you are the only one who experiences how the meds affect you, and you get to decide accordingly, what is allowed into your body.

it is understandable. i so hope that tdoc will be helpful. i am glad you are going to meet with her.

~ waves ~

i just looked up lexapro and chest pains were one of the side effects but i know you and you already looked it up.
I know the feeling of not wanted to be experimented on....how in the world can you reduce stress in your environment.don't let your parents visit this year! say you have leprosy....
bobby

Dear Bobby and Waves,

No. I had not looked up the med. I went into this hoping for the best.
I told pdoc that I had a bad experience on Prozac and he said I would be fine with with Lexapro.

Prozac and Lexapro are almost the same freaking drug!
I asked hubby just now to try to explain to me the chemical formulas of Prozac and Lexapro --- wikipedia has good illustrations. They look very much the same to me. Hubby started talking about nitrogen atoms and I said, "Later, I'm going to bed."

I took Lexapro
1. Fri
2. Sat
3. Sun
4. Mon
By Tuesday I had chest pains and anxiety and Wednesday I still have them.

I like seeing tdoc when I am well so we can get work done. I hate when all we do is crisis management. I basically have to interrupt my sleep during the day, drive downtown in afternoon rush hour traffic to tell her I feel like garbage. We could just exchange pleasantries over the phone for five minutes and accomplish just as much for less driving

When I was in my 20s I must have had a lot of optimism and a lot of strength to go through those med changes that I did. Looking back I see I had a lot of courage. I'm not going through med changes like that again -- spend 4 or 5 years going through 20+ meds???

The leprosy comment made me laugh. It's a good idea. My mom is germaphobic -- except she understands Leprosy -- once told me about a book she read about Leprosy in Hawaii. She finds leprosy and its history fascinating.

M.

i am sorry Mari.

Mari,
Aren't they terrible? I take a lot of drugs a day! Maybe not as many as some but enough for me, 26 pills a day! I have done what you did in your 20's and am still doing it for the bipolar nonsense! I have also told you about my fainting spells that I go through, so I am on meds for that! None of them seem to work and only cause side effects but I keep taking what they give me in hopes that they will get the right combo for me! It is frustrating! We have an illness and it needs to be treated like any other illness!

When I was so ready to give up on the fainting stuff you were there saying that thing would get better! You commented on all of the test potentially being a good thing and you also said that Vanderbilt might have the answers! If you are telling me not to give up how can you?

I don't know everything that is or has gone on in your life but I do not feel that no more meds is a wise thought, but only you can answer that!

Just worried for you collinsc

Mari

I'm wondering also if you might be able to go up some on your
verapermil. I just recently went up to 300mg. From 240mg.
Because of my migraines returning.

It had started helping till both the tight muscles and the liptor.

I have by the way everyone started making sure I take the liptor.
Since I'm almost positive its the muscles not the medicine.

Donna

I am sorry
((((HUGS))))does that mean you are not going to try the 5mg ambien, wonder if that is breakable and could split that in half>>>hmmm????
bizi

Hi. I don't need the ambien.
I can sleep. The problem is that I don't go to bed.

M.

Hi,

I have a great deal of anger right now.

I am angry.


Tdoc told me that in the past when I was seeing my acupuncturist and seeing tdoc for meditation I was doing better. (I don't remember that I was ever doing better.)

I told her she is too much trouble to see what with having to drive to see her and not sleeping. She said we could do phone sessions. I said nothing and shook my head.

M.